Thursday, August 28, 2008 6:51 PM
haish .
i sibeih boh mood ..
English :B4
Higher Chinese: C5
Mathematics : C5
Science : B4
Geography : A1
History : B4
Literature : E8
Home Economucs : B4
im hiding my report book from my mother .
but i wonder how long can i hid .
haish .
E8 .
E8 !
at least i didnt get F9 .
even Enthuu asked me whad happened to my results .
i didnt know how to answerr her .
all i know was to hold back my tears .
i just came home and im already lyk tearing .
idk when dhis secondary school life i going to stop .
i just want it to stop going ..
Plsssss ..
maybe i had played too much .
but ive really tried my best !
ive lost .
ive nth to cling on now .
i would just let everything fail ,
dhen drop to NA stream ,
dhen to NT .
its useless to study .
cuz i cant .
idk how i used to ,
but now ,
i CANT .
ouh everybody ,
just STFU !
dun comfort me .
you are gonna make me feel worse .
im so fucking stressed up .
i cant run th cross country just becuz of th duty .
dere goes my one year .
and i swear i will nehber do it again th next year .
wib my results ,
hw can i face th world confidently ?!
i must as well stay at home .
eat finish alrdy slp ,
slp finish alrdy eat .
liddat very good whad ?!
no homework ,
no cherrs ,
no NOTHING !
i cant do anything about it .
if im going to fail ,
let it be .
if im going to stay in sec 1 forever ,
let it be .
i cant hlp it and i dun want to hlp it .
dhis is crap .
im nortt gonna be th gurl ive used to be anymore .
im nortt gonna cry over silly things lyk results and him .
im nortt gonna bother myself wib my results .
im nortt gonna care if people expel me or anything .
i just wanna be MYSELF .
im stooooo-pid and i cant achieve good results .
get dhis point straight .
i want to be th stoooooo-pid me .
i dun wanna be myself trapped in another person's mind .
i dun wanna be a puppet anymore .
&& im nortt gonna be as pathetic ever again .
weesh .
suck it .
if i cant behave myself ,
let it be .
`cuz dhats part of being myself .
i dun wanna be studying in another person's mind .
i dun wanna sit for exams liddat .
i dun wanna my promotion test .
I DUN WANNA ANYTHING .
I HATE EVERYONE !
{except my gurlfweees }
haish .
im left wib nth in th end .
im left wib nth after fighting so fucking hard .
im left wib nth but a lame report book .
im left wib nth but 3more years in CCKS .
ihate dhis sch .
so be it .
ihate exams ,
so be it .
ihate stoooooooo-pid cherrs ,
so be it .
dhis is th real me(:
MY STEAD : of cuz we will last long(:
KAIMIN(: : haish .. can i hlp it ? thanks btws;D did you see th note i left under yr desk ater my campcraft test ?
3nid : nehbermind . if you said srys nw , will it hlp ?
QIANYI : Thanks for tagging , baobeih !
