Find myself back.
I'm tired of this big, beautiful world. Everything i do seems to make everyone unhappy. But i just can't shut the fuck up and listen to other's opinion. Yes, damn stubborn. But what can i do? Turn back time and not be born or what? What the hell the world is expecting from me, huh? Can't i just lead a normal and peaceful life like anyone? I hadn't done such a big and wrong mistake in my whole life before. I'm the one who has ruined my own life. I'm the one who has cause the whole lot of problem. Yes, my fault, it's my fault that everything is going wrong in this world, happy? My fault that you are late for school, my fault that your bacon's gone overcooked that morning, or my fault tha you wore a wrong pair of shoe to anywhere? My fault? Am i really wrong? Is it just so wrong to be myself? Damn it. Did anyone saw what i'm good at? No. No matter what shit am i good at, everyone will have the same thing. So what's the point of living these 14 years? Friendship, failed; academic, failed; relationship, failed; health, failed; everything, failed. Big failure, so what? Don't i have the rights to be myself? Don't i have the rights to lead the life i want? Why is everybody poking their noses in my affairs? Stop all of your nonsense lah! I had enough. I want to go on a long, long break. Somewhere by myself. Somewhere i can
find myself. Somewhere people don't really give a damn, except for the people i love. Somewhere the life is carefree and comfortable. Somewhere i am.
Edited @ 12.12am, 17th May 2009 {Sunday}
1. Samantha.
2. Jonathan.
3. Justin.
4. Joceleen.
5. Shuwen.
6. Shumei.
7. Kaimin.
8. Dawn.
9. Kang Xing.
10. Faye.
11. Alicia.
12. Kimberly.
13. Ziyuan.
14. Minru.
15. Tricia.
16. Izyan.
{Don't want to write already. If it's not enough, i'll just count back.}
How did you get to meet 7 ? {Kaimin.}
Through Enid.
What would you do if you and 15 never met? {Tricia.}
Nobody will have the same route as me when i go home.
What would you do if 1 and 20 date? {Samantha, Joceleen.}
Please. Samantha and Joceleen
WILL NOT be together.
Have you ever seen 17 cry? {Samantha.}
Nope.
Would 4 and 16 be a good couple? {Joceleen, Izyan.}
Nope. Different race and i think their personality will clash.
Do you think 11 is attractive? {Alicia.}
LOL. She is the cutest junior. (:
What's 2's favourite colour? {Jonathan.}
Go ask him. I don't know.
When was the last time you talked to 9? {Kang Xing.}
Very long ago, since there's CCA standdown.
What language does 8 speak? {Dawn.}
Human language. She speaks whatever i speak.
Who is 13 going out with? {Ziyuan.}
He keep changing one, who i know. Must keep a record book next time. :x
What grade is 12 in? {Kimberly.}
Secondary 2. My sister. :D
Would you ever date with 17? {Samantha.}
She likes someone else.
Where does 18 live? {Jonathan.}
Near Sunshine Place there.
What's the best thing about 3? {Justin.}
Decisive!
What would you want to tell 10 now? {Faye.}
Junior, i miss ya!!!!
Whats the best thing about 20? {Joceleen.}
She is my lab partner. Without her, i won't be able to complete most praticals.
Have you ever kissed 5? {Shuwen.}
Nope.
What was the best memory you have with 21? {Shuwen.}
Laughing about a teacher.
When's the last time you're going to see 6? {Shumei.}
Er, Monday?
How is 14 and 12 different? {Kimberly, Minru.}
Kimberly is noisy, but fun sister. Minru is someone who will sit down and listen to you, but is pretty wild sometimes. :x
Is 19 pretty? {Justin.}
I guess so. :x
What was the first impression of 11? {Alicia.}
A quiet girl.
How did you meet 20? {Joceleen.}
She's my classmate, what do you think?
Is 1 your best friend? {Samantha.}
No. She's my junior. Normal friends.
Do you hate 12? {Kimberly.}
Hell, no. She's my sister.
Have you seen 18 on the last month? {Jonathan.}
Well, i see that idiot every school day.
When was the last time you said 16? {Izyan.}
So long already.
Have you been to 5's house? {Shuwen.}
Nope.
When's the next time you gonnna see 10? {Faye.}
Primary School's open house.
Are you close to 13? {Ziyuan.}
Ok lah, he's my Kukubird.
Have you ever been to a movie with 4 before? {Joceleen.}
Nope.
Have you ever gotten into trouble with 8? {Dawn.}
Nope.
Would you give 19 a hug? {Justin.}
Er, nope.
When have you lied to 3? {Justin}
Not once. Swear.
Is 16 good with socializing? {Izyan.}
Guess she's okay lah.
Do you know secrets about 9? {Kang Xing.}
No. Even if i know, i'm not gonna tell ya.
Describe the relationship between 12 and 14. {Kimberly, Minru.}
They're schoolmates.
What's the best thing about your friendship with 9? {Kang Xing.}
We're in the same CCA.
What's the worst thing about 6? {Shumei.}
She is too smart. Joking!!!!
Have you ever had a crush on 12? {Kimberly.}
TOLD YOU SHE'S MY SISTER! WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM HERE?
Does 14 has a girlfriend or boyfriend? {Minru.}
No.
Have you ever wanted to punch 1's face? {Samantha.}
I only want to smack her crush's face.
Has 21 met your mother? {Shuwen.}
Nope.
How did you get to meet 15? {Tricia.}
Primary school.
Did you ever physically hurt 3? {Justin.}
Nope.
Do you live close to 7? {Kaimin.}
Yes.
What's 8's favourite food? {Dawn.}
*Shrugs.
What kind of car does 1 has? {Samantha.}
Toy cars.
Have you travelled anywhere with 9 before? {Kang Xing.}
Nope.
If you give 14 $100 , what will he/she spend it on? {Minru.}
I think a lot of things. She's a maniac.
Finally it's done.
I'm tired of this big, beautiful world. Everything i do seems to make everyone unhappy. But i just can't shut the fuck up and listen to other's opinion. Yes, damn stubborn. But what can i do? Turn back time and not be born or what? What the hell the world is expecting from me, huh? Can't i just lead a normal and peaceful life like anyone? I hadn't done such a big and wrong mistake in my whole life before. I'm the one who has ruined my own life. I'm the one who has cause the whole lot of problem. Yes, my fault, it's my fault that everything is going wrong in this world, happy? My fault that you are late for school, my fault that your bacon's gone overcooked that morning, or my fault tha you wore a wrong pair of shoe to anywhere? My fault? Am i really wrong? Is it just so wrong to be myself? Damn it. Did anyone saw what i'm good at? No. No matter what shit am i good at, everyone will have the same thing. So what's the point of living these 14 years? Friendship, failed; academic, failed; relationship, failed; health, failed; everything, failed. Big failure, so what? Don't i have the rights to be myself? Don't i have the rights to lead the life i want? Why is everybody poking their noses in my affairs? Stop all of your nonsense lah! I had enough. I want to go on a long, long break. Somewhere by myself. Somewhere i can find myself. Somewhere people don't really give a damn, except for the people i love. Somewhere the life is carefree and comfortable. Somewhere i am.