Everything's done - Parent's signature, form is completed. I wonder what am i still waiting for. I'm wondering why am i hesitating so much. It's a rare chance, i finally can go to the school i yearn so much for the past 2 years. So what's up withthe hesitation? I don't understand, really. A lot of people disuade me from transfering, but some people persuade me to transfer too. If it's really approved, i'll miss all my friends, squad mates and teachers here, but the good thing is i get to have F&N. If it's not approved, i'll not get to take F&N, but i'll have all my friends, teachers and squad mates here, intact. So now what? I hate it when i'm feeling like that. It meant people's words really influence me. How i wish i don't have the need to go to school, then all this damn thing would end. How i wish.
Can i really back out now? I don't know. I won't think the principal will approve my special request if i tell him i want to go back cck for CCAs. I mean, if i'm tranfered there, then i'm officially a student from Zhenghua, and no longer part of CCK. How can i make such a absurb request, you tell me? And people tell me that CCK is a better school, in terms of academic and behaviour. People tell me CCK is near my house, so there's no need to spend money on the concession and new uniform. People tell me Zhenghua isn't such a good school as i've expected. People tell me Zhenghua is a very beautiful school. People tell me that i should follow my head instead of my heart. People tell me i should think of my future. People tell me all sort of stuff, but the main problem is, who should i trust? I can make a wrong decision once, but i can't afford to make the same mistake twice. I miss everything i have had here. I'll miss everyone i loved here. But, what should i do? I'm confused. I afraid to make a wrong decision. I'm afraid of everything. What should i do?
