Fuck.
Monday, August 17, 2009 7:40 PM
Yea, Fuck. Why? Why are they gonna offer F&N next year? I hope they wouldn't, but it isn't confirmed yet. Right now, i'm still making a bet with myself. I'm crazy, i'm foolish, and i don't know everything. Everyhting is going haywired. I hate my freaking life. -'-
Just as what he told me before, life isn't all that you've expected. I sorta agree with it. Doesn't means i can win everytime. Doesn't means I don't get to try failure. Yes, i do. Everyone does. It's part of growing up. But the part where you know how to stand up after you had fell is the important part. And i, can't stand up. I sat down there and refuses to get up. Even there was a WWIII, i still sat there, crossing my legs. I refuse to be hardworking and do what was expected of me. I wanted to act smart. That was me, and that is me. I know everyone's telling me i have the potential, but i'm just too lazy. But don't you think we should take life as it is now? Why should life be like when people rush for their trains or buses when we only can live for a 70-90 years? I just don't get it. Aren't they tired of rushing around all the time, trying tio get their job done, or trying to please their superiors? Aren't they sick and tired of it? They aren't, but i am.
It's not like you don't have a tml, it's not like you don't have a future. The way human works really freaks me up. I want a long, long break away from all this stress and tiredness. I'm tired of waking up early in the morning and attending lectures when i don't even enjoy it. Shouldn't they be like do things they want? What is childhood, did they stop and think before? I want peace, and stress-less life, not those ype when you have to rush for your lessons, rush for your remedials, rush for your cca, etc. Because they want to be Number 1. Because in this kinda relistic society, only the best can survive. Because in this stressful society, only the best can be want they want when they grow up. What those who are very, very talented, but is only good at that particular subject gets? Bull shit. A load of bull shit. Because in this kinda mordern society, there is only a word- win. Everything die die must win. You strangle me, I bite you. I slap you, you pull my hair. What's the use? You'll definately get tired of this kinda competition someday. And perhaps, when that day comes, you'd hope you did something more meaningful than strangling one another. And perhaps, when that day comes, everyone would stop when they are walking, and take a look at this beautiful world, or even count those stars in the sky.
So, why are we still fighting?
Decided
Monday, August 3, 2009 4:46 PM
I don't wish to say anything more on the schools. No more comments. I've made up my mind.
Stayed at home today. Seriously, i really hate Monday programs. D&T took half the time. I hate it. I hate it when there are a lot of boring lessons, especially Mother Tongue. God, it suck. But, I didn't skip school today. I was really unwell. I felt that i had fever, but when i took the temperature, i didn't have. Shit.
When i was at home today, i really didn't know why did i played Maple. Ok, ok. It's time for me to grow up. I didn't feel like doing anything, i just want to sleep. Like i'm dead. Yeah. Whatever. But it's sort of unlucky. Being sick isn't a nice feeling.
I hope i won't regret my decision.
I wish i was richer, in hundreds of terms. Say, knowledge, MONEY(!!!!), maturity and so on. Because by then, i'll have nothing to be worried about. Because by then, i'm gonna be a millionaire!
Ok, lame.
不要以为我这样做是为了逃避你，你还不够资格。求求你啦，妒忌就说妒忌啦，不要说什么恨，好吗？你知不知道你这样做让我很反胃？够了吧你。其实你知是妒忌我比你认识他深，因为你明明还爱着他的。拜托，还轮得到你来恨我吗？我觉得我没必要向你解释。笨蛋加白痴。
