Fuck.
Yea, Fuck. Why? Why are they gonna offer F&N next year? I hope they wouldn't, but it isn't confirmed yet. Right now, i'm still making a bet with myself. I'm crazy, i'm foolish, and i don't know everything. Everyhting is going haywired. I hate my freaking life. -'-
Just as what he told me before, life isn't all that you've expected. I sorta agree with it. Doesn't means i can win everytime. Doesn't means I don't get to try failure. Yes, i do. Everyone does. It's part of growing up. But the part where you know how to stand up after you had fell is the important part. And i, can't stand up. I sat down there and refuses to get up. Even there was a WWIII, i still sat there, crossing my legs. I refuse to be hardworking and do what was expected of me. I wanted to act smart. That was me, and that is me. I know everyone's telling me i have the potential, but i'm just too lazy. But don't you think we should take life as it is now? Why should life be like when people rush for their trains or buses when we only can live for a 70-90 years? I just don't get it. Aren't they tired of rushing around all the time, trying tio get their job done, or trying to please their superiors? Aren't they sick and tired of it? They aren't, but i am.
It's not like you don't have a tml, it's not like you don't have a future. The way human works really freaks me up. I want a long, long break away from all this stress and tiredness. I'm tired of waking up early in the morning and attending lectures when i don't even enjoy it. Shouldn't they be like do things they want? What is childhood, did they stop and think before? I want peace, and stress-less life, not those ype when you have to rush for your lessons, rush for your remedials, rush for your cca, etc. Because they want to be Number 1. Because in this kinda relistic society, only the best can survive. Because in this stressful society, only the best can be want they want when they grow up. What those who are very, very talented, but is only good at that particular subject gets? Bull shit. A load of bull shit. Because in this kinda mordern society, there is only a word- win. Everything die die must win. You strangle me, I bite you. I slap you, you pull my hair. What's the use? You'll definately get tired of this kinda competition someday. And perhaps, when that day comes, you'd hope you did something more meaningful than strangling one another. And perhaps, when that day comes, everyone would stop when they are walking, and take a look at this beautiful world, or even count those stars in the sky.
So, why are we still fighting?
