Visage Masque

I hate, i hate and hate.

2009-12-02T13:30:00.003+08:00

(These photos have nothing to do with the statements below.)
I wish i could bury the harted. What can i do? I'm not a saint, nor am i God. I'm just disgusted at the fact that i was hating people so much. I'm disgusted at myself. I just want to erase what they did to me. The betrayal, the lying... I can't forget it... I'm going crazy. It's not the way it was meant to be...

Random stuff; random talk

2009-11-28T16:04:00.002+08:00

I'm back to sg!

Anw, i keep thinking of random stuff nowadays. When i was on the phone with Puay Yun, i suddenly say:" * very shuai leh!!!!" LOL. Looks like i'm going gaga over him. :x

I'm excited, really excited. My life nowadays is sleep, eat, watch tv, eat, watch tv, eat, watch tv, sleep. Like its a job i had to do everyday. Ha, the time seems to past by in high speed. The holiday will end soon. Soon, i have to ganbatte for my Sec 3 studies and O levels. Oh btw, i'm taking MT paper next year. Hee, i'm scared. Seriously.

Never look down on anyone, even though that person is really much worse off than you. That person might be better than you some time later.

Never ever say you can't do it, because that statement is for those who are not willing to try.

Sevice @ JW

2009-11-16T12:12:00.002+08:00

Went for service yesterday. Yesterday's song included a new song, and as for others, luckily i knew how to sing them. :x Yesterday's service was about 'Divine Delays'.

Divine Delays happened because:

God has something else for you before that.

You're still lacking of the capablity to handle your dreams.

You still have some sins in you.

{i forgot. Need to check it up.}

And in order to achieve your dreams, you need:

Courage

Faith

Trust

After service, we went to Jurong Point. I still can't find the dress i wanted, ahhhhh! Hope i can find it either in Orchard or when i'm overseas. :x

After that, i went to Cousin's house and finally, i was home at 10.45pm.

Had a great sleep.

思念

2009-11-13T13:07:00.002+08:00

It has been raining recently. Too often.

你还好吗？

I'm really looking forward to the class outing tml. Probably we wouldn't go to the beach, since it has been raining and raining this month.

I hope i still can go to service on Sunday. (:

Dreams and desires.

2009-11-12T14:09:00.002+08:00

Hm, i was thinking about what Pastor Kong said 2 weeks ago.

"You don't find your dreams. Your dreams find you."
"If God didn't make you to be what you want to be, you'll never suceed."
"If you were born to be afraid of blood, there's no way you'll be a surgeon."

My dream so-called found me a couple of days after that service. I stumbled into Pastor Kong's blog when i was surfing the net: http://www.konghee.com/www/

Haha, my dream may sound so funny that you may have to drop down from your chair. So, i won't tell. :x Peace out.

Rotting in progress..

2009-11-11T14:46:00.002+08:00

For Jerr Maine who birth on month October below are their affection analysis :

- Loves to chat
- Loves those who loves him
- Loves to takes things at the centre
- Attractive and suave
- Inner and physical beauty
- Does not lie or pretend
- Sympathetic
- Treats friends importantly
- Always making friends
- Easily hurt but recovers easily
- Bad tempered
- Selfish
- Seldom helps unless asked
- Daydreamer
- Very opinionated

Lol, boh liao then go Facebook do quizzes. Ah, i'm rotting at home and desperately need a job for an income. I'm wasting my time and i'm getting fatter and fatter (o.o)! Seriously, the quiz is really quite accurate!!!! Haha. Just called Yue Lin. She sounded like she just came back from a battle. :x Is the camp really that horrible?

Today i was experimenting with stuff that caused my 2 days diahhorea. Oh, and i really found it! It was because of the ham. My whole family ate it and nothing happened to them, but God, i realised i couldn't take raw food! The last time i ate sashimi caused me to vomit and feel really very horrible. I really don't have the habit of heating up things before eating. Well well, it's just pure laziness. I know quite a lot of people will have the same feeling as me.

I'm really looking forward to Saturday! Class outing at Sentosaaaaaaaaahhhhh! Wow, it's been a long time since i went to Sentosa. I miss the car thingy. Lol. I sound so immature. Anyway, it's gonna be the last class gathering this year, and most probably of our whole lives. And as for me, it's even more important because since i didn't attend the camp, this is the last chance i get to see my friends. Sob, i hope Ms Lim will be here too. I miss her!

Recently, i've been attending services. And yep, last week was Robb Thomson's preaching. What he said made a lot of sense, though i don't understand the last statement: In order to achieve your future desires, you must first give up your present desires. Wow, i memorized it! Unexpectedly. Lol. Okay, during dinner (or supper?) my cousin explained to me over that plate of chicken rice. Wa, she super 'throw face' can? She ask the uncle to combine the two bowls of soup together. I told her the soup is full of msg, drink already not even can't quench my thirst, it'll even make it worst. Then (finally!) when the huge bowl of soup was about to finish, she went back to the uncle and ask him for more soup. Ya, then she wants me to drink it up. -.- Luckily, it ended with my drinking 10 mouthfuls of it. I almost died can?

How many days is it when you said the last 'I love you'? I don't remember anymore. I'm gonna erase you from my mind without leaving any scar or stains.

你还记得吗？

2009-11-03T22:23:00.007+08:00

你还记得吗？
你还记得我们曾答应彼此天长地久吗？
你还记得那晚我们在黑夜里一起数星星吗？
那晚的流行是多么的耀眼，多么的令人瞩目。他就像你，来匆匆，去也匆匆。留下的痕迹只有我一个懂。我终于领悟了为什么吃太多趟国会蛀牙。你越是甜蜜，我的心越是痛。只怪我爱你爱得那么汹涌。。。
我想知道，如果我们在路上遇见了，我们会不会成了陌生人？
亲爱的，你还记得吗？
你还记得我们迷路的时候吗？
你是如此的慌张，到处问人。我微微笑对你说地球是圆的，无论你怎样转，有一天你一定会去到你要去的地方。没想到如今的我需要用这句话来安慰自己。
我不会再问为什么，因为在多的为什么也不会有我要的答案。
你还记得吗？
那天下着好大的雨，而我们都没带雨伞。你用你的外套来替我遮雨。虽然那天的天气还算冷，但是我是觉得那么温暖，那么的甜。
还记得吗？
你说过你会让伤心得我变得世界上最开心的人。愚蠢的我竟然相信这世界还有永恒。
我从那美丽的梦醒过来了。先是真得好痛，好痛。。。
我多么想一睡不醒，因为梦里的你是永恒的。
等我睁开眼睛时，我发现枕头莫名其妙的湿了。
我哭了。。。

I thought i wouldn't.

2009-10-31T20:40:00.005+08:00

I thought i wouldn't cry. I promised i'll be strong. The museum trip was really a great one for me, thanks. Class 2/4 of 2009, i vow i wouldn't forget you all. I had never once had such a fun class like this. All the tears, laughter and excitment, i'll never forget them. Especially my friends.

Let's start with the girls first.

Puay Yun (Enthu):
A girl that is sometimes crazy and sometimes enthu. Smart and serious and always finding a way to study so that she'll get the best results. A listener and gives advice frequently. Gossips with me and diao me whenever i'm crazy. I'll never forget her diao(s). (: We do all the fun things together with Yue Lin.

Yue Lin:
Laughs as hard as i do. Mr Kong thinks she's crazy too. Have a butt that i'll always have the temptation to beat whenever i walk pass her. Have a head of fake hair which she uses super glue to stick it on her head (she told me so). Was the first one i poured out all my troubles on. She's a dare to say, dare to do person. I'll never forget her laughter.

Kimberly:
Our 2/4 superstar. Loves lip gloss and style. She sings well because of her mouth. Her mouth is those of an American singer, full. She is the only girl in the class who is gives lip gloss too. No need to worry much, because she's gonna be in the same class as me next year. Her laughter is also quite (ahem) stunning.

Nora:
Smart but was lazy in the past. Because of her hardwork, she got A Maths (I think so!). Generous and is really good to her friends. Loves to gossip as much as i do (Oops!) and hate almost all the people that i hate too.

Zi Ru:
Obessesed with Song Hong. Do everything also must seek for his opinon first. She's really good in Maths. Is not really rich, but keep giving Song Hong they all treats. Tsk, tsk.

Shu Mei:
A really great top scholar who teaches me things i don't get, especially maths. She is helpful. Although she look kind on the outside, but actually.. Heeheehee!

Fang Ying:
The main organisation of the chalet. Vivian and co.'s 大姐.

Now the boys.

Syazwan:
My 'boyfriend' who always makes me laugh. Brings an Elmo bag an walks around like a little kid. A really loyal and funny guy. Hm, i suppose we'll also be in the same class next year, so not to worry!

Vivian:
A guy with a name of a girl and guts of a girl. Funny and is a child that never ever grows up. Can eat 2 person's serving of food and is my 'dustbin' as whenever i can't finish my food, the first one i'll think of is him! Lol!

Peng Hong:
Everytime act like he is a 'laoda'. Has a unique chin and his relative is Yue Lin's Jack Russell. Stays near me and comes from the same primary school as me.

Crispan:
A guy with a sense of humour and a never-stop mouth. Likes to play 'Pokemon' and play lame games with Peng Hong/Vivian. Comes from the same primary school as me and is the shortest among his group. :x

Emerson:
The 'BFG' (Big Friendly Giant) in our class. He is our monitor and always get bullied by Vivian and co.. He's the one who is always in charge of taking those stupid videos (with us inside!!!!) and is the only person in our school AVA club because he is the one who always get called out to do the projector and stuff in the hall.

I suppose that's all. Believe it or not, i was crying when i wrote this post. I can't bear to think that we'll all be seperated next year. I don't want it to happen. What can i do? I love my friends...

Bottom of my heart.

2009-10-22T11:52:00.002+08:00

Seriously, from the very bottom of my heart, i hope he won't leave.

In fact, i really still love him.

Among few billons of people, we still managed to meet, we still managed to be together. That's really quite a feat. That was fate, not luck.

I really, really hope he won't leave. But I can't do anything about it.

True love isn't something you can forget within days. I'm not Tricia. I'm the girl who is still living in the past. I'm still clinging on to something that is impossible to happen, impossible to mend. I'm that foolish girl who believes in eternity. I'm that girl that once loved you, and had remembered it since then.

Song lyrics. (Nothing to do with this post! (:)

二缺一
蔡卓妍 (广东版)

每晚回到家里带半残废身躯
入睡床没法睡杂念来又去
往往仍记起你过去共你一起
所经过多得可以编写几次传记

分享我的兴趣分担我各样顾虑
在绝处一刻拥抱等於给我圣水
你去后令我发现笑声有罪踏步也失据

剩下自己怎可走到尾
遇挫折孤身撑起好东西独自回味
最极刑是剩下自己彷佛单脚企
任我再努力逃避终须一跌没余地
假使我昨日单身走过去
没有经历和你一起的壮举
今天要我独居应不会难受到想死去

惯了共你一半吃喝共你一碗
是幕僚是友伴幸运和自满
这晚上再想你记挂共你一起
所经过的多麽美多麽回肠荡气

分享我的兴趣分担我各样顾虑
在绝处一刻拥抱等於给我圣水
你去后令我发现笑声有罪踏步也失据

剩下自己怎可走到尾
遇挫折孤身撑起好东西独自回味
最极刑是剩下自己彷佛单脚企
任我再努力逃避终须一跌没余地
假使我昨日单身走过去
没有经历和你一起的壮举
今天要我独居应不会难受到想死去

实在是世事难料剩下自己怎可走到尾
遇挫折孤身撑起好东西独自回味
最极刑是剩下自己彷佛单脚企
任我再努力逃避终须一跌没余地

最绝情是剩下自己怎可走到尾 (多麽多麽的想你)
遇挫折孤身撑起好东西独自回味 (极痛恨遗憾美)
最极刑是剩下自己彷佛单脚企 (我会试试今天起)
任我再努力逃避终须一跌没余地 (习惯剩下自己)
假使我昨日单身走过去
没有经历和你一起的壮举
今天要我独居应不会难受到想死去

情歌
梁静如

时光是琥珀泪一滴滴被反锁
情书再不朽也磨成沙漏
青春的上游白云飞走苍狗与海鸥
闪过的念头潺潺的溜走

命运好幽默让爱的人都沉默
一整个宇宙换一颗红豆
回忆如困兽寂寞太久而渐渐温柔
放开了拳头反而更自由

慢动作缱绻胶卷重播默片定格一瞬间
我们在告别的演唱会说好不再见

你写给我我的第一首歌
你和我十指紧扣默写前奏
可是那然后呢
还好我有我这一首情歌
轻轻的轻轻哼着哭着笑着
我的天长地久

命运好幽默让爱的人都沉默
一整个宇宙换一颗红豆
回忆如困兽寂寞太久而渐渐温柔
放开了拳头反而更自由

长镜头越拉越远越来越远事隔好几年
我们在怀念的演唱会礼貌的吻别

你写给我我的第一首歌
你和我十指紧扣默写前奏
可是那然后呢
还好我有我这一首情歌
轻轻的轻轻哼着哭着笑着
我的天长地久

陪我唱歌清唱你的情歌
舍不得短短副歌心还热着
也该告一段落
还好我有我下一首情歌
生命宛如静静的相拥的河
永远天长地久

小情歌
苏打绿

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着

你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着
你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡
你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡

B4 for Maths! (:

2009-10-20T15:50:00.002+08:00

Didn't go for school today. As a result, i'm all bored and stuffy at home. Lol, serve me right for not going to school. -.-

Great news. Got a B4 for my Maths! This is really worth celebrating, seriously.

End of today's post. Good luck for my results!

恨来恨去。

2009-10-18T10:40:00.003+08:00

Seriously, i'm sick of the 恨来恨去 game. Fuck man, it's driving me really crazy. People whom i've been really really close to can end up betraying me. People like Enid, Wenling, Tricia. Seriously, from the very bottom of my heart, i've treated them like friends i could confide in. And, i've also treated them like a friend too. What did i do to deserve such betrayal? Hey, it's not like i've stepped on you all like how i stepped on the floor; it's not like i gave you all a great big slap and stuff like this. How can a friendship have no trust in it? I mean, i trust every friend, really. Regardless how long i've known you all, how much time we had spend together, yet this is all i get for trusting you all- a big scar on my heart. I don't know if you all had really treated me like a real friend before, but this lesson really feels like pouring a huge bucket of water on my face. I've finally woke up from my so-called 'friends must trust friends' policy. I've finally realised friends don't really trust friends afterall. Maybe it's true that what goes around comes around. One fine day, you all will get back treatment on how you had treated the others. That's all. I've nothing much to say to this mother fuckers.

Anyway, today is my Chinese(?) birthday. Do i really call it as my Chinese birthday or Lunar birthday? Whatever. I'm going chalet with my cousins and aunts. Happy Birthday to my cousins too. She has the same birthday as me. So we help them to save $$, buy one cake for 3 people. -.- Okay never mind.

Looking forward to the 2nd of November. (:

Irritating idiot.

2009-09-09T21:18:00.000+08:00

Fuck, bitch. Seriously, just ask Kimberly said- Fuck face. -'- Nahbei, just shut up and die. Yea, i don't give friggin' damn, you holy shit.

Yea, so what if i wanna slap you. I tell you, i'll slap you right in front of your lj eyes lah hor. Stop acting cute as though the whole world belongs to you and your damned attitude. Even got boyfriend can show off somemore. Ew, i think that person's eyes surely pajiao one lah hor. Don't even have his photo, you can go jump down and die at this very moment.

Step cute, you think what? Xiasuay our class nia. So short, aiyo, you really think you really very chio when Baey and i called out to you huh? Eh please lah, i thought you always take a mirror walk here walk there one? Take a good look at yourself first, please. Just as Song Hong say at night you go out the ghost also will call out 'Hi, Sister!'.

Oh yah, just hoping to pass my overalls.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo
Because i'm jermaine. (:

A lesson learnt today: Never go shopping with parents, because you're restricted by the shops you can go to. (:

I'm back.

2009-09-04T13:28:00.000+08:00

Ok. I will do what i've promised to do, don't worry. I can't stand her being in my class, that bitch, so yea, and i'm not doing this because her English got higher than me, mind you. -.-

Didn't go school today. There seemed to be a lot of problems with me lately. The doctor suspected i got asthma, if not my lungs kenna inflamation. What to do? I musn't, i repeat, musn't get asthma because i'm going for the ice cream buffet with friends. I mean, i can get it after the buffet, right? o.o okay, never mind.

Tml i'm accompanying Ziru to send that bloody Song Hong to airport. Nononono, he's not bloody. At least he promised to buy me something. Song Hong, not bloody Song Hong. He's going back, yes.

Monday i'm going for the ice cream buffet with friends. 1 for 1 what. It was Ziru (THANKS!) for reminding us about it. At, ION, and only ION have that buffet. Yuelin said it didn't have any time limit, so we can camp there, lol. The Yuelin super cute lo, when an insect dropped inside her laksa, she was so scared that she almost threw away the whole thing. And of course, since it's 1 for 1, Tricia's coming with us. We will go walk around Orchard, and of course, i remember that time when i gekiang bring them to Takashimaya and i can't find the bloody exit to 190. Walau.

Today was a terrible day. Spent 4 hours at the polyclinic waiting. Blood test, X-ray, consultation, take medicine. I hated the bloody test mansz! I thought they just wanted the blood from my fingertip, but the took it from me arm. Shit, i hate taking blood from my arm! Aiya, but what to do? Just let her take lo. The doctor gave me MC and said no tedious excersises for me because he say if my lungs are really inflammated, it'll be very dangerous. Oh yea, whatever. I'm going to STUDY,STUDY,STUDY,STUDY,STUDY for the one week. I can't afford to fail. I can't afford.

Wish i had time to go church during the holidays. I miss CHC.

I'm confused and irritated now. Just fuck off.

Fuck.

2009-08-17T19:40:00.000+08:00

Yea, Fuck. Why? Why are they gonna offer F&N next year? I hope they wouldn't, but it isn't confirmed yet. Right now, i'm still making a bet with myself. I'm crazy, i'm foolish, and i don't know everything. Everyhting is going haywired. I hate my freaking life. -'-

Just as what he told me before, life isn't all that you've expected. I sorta agree with it. Doesn't means i can win everytime. Doesn't means I don't get to try failure. Yes, i do. Everyone does. It's part of growing up. But the part where you know how to stand up after you had fell is the important part. And i, can't stand up. I sat down there and refuses to get up. Even there was a WWIII, i still sat there, crossing my legs. I refuse to be hardworking and do what was expected of me. I wanted to act smart. That was me, and that is me. I know everyone's telling me i have the potential, but i'm just too lazy. But don't you think we should take life as it is now? Why should life be like when people rush for their trains or buses when we only can live for a 70-90 years? I just don't get it. Aren't they tired of rushing around all the time, trying tio get their job done, or trying to please their superiors? Aren't they sick and tired of it? They aren't, but i am.

It's not like you don't have a tml, it's not like you don't have a future. The way human works really freaks me up. I want a long, long break away from all this stress and tiredness. I'm tired of waking up early in the morning and attending lectures when i don't even enjoy it. Shouldn't they be like do things they want? What is childhood, did they stop and think before? I want peace, and stress-less life, not those ype when you have to rush for your lessons, rush for your remedials, rush for your cca, etc. Because they want to be Number 1. Because in this kinda relistic society, only the best can survive. Because in this stressful society, only the best can be want they want when they grow up. What those who are very, very talented, but is only good at that particular subject gets? Bull shit. A load of bull shit. Because in this kinda mordern society, there is only a word- win. Everything die die must win. You strangle me, I bite you. I slap you, you pull my hair. What's the use? You'll definately get tired of this kinda competition someday. And perhaps, when that day comes, you'd hope you did something more meaningful than strangling one another. And perhaps, when that day comes, everyone would stop when they are walking, and take a look at this beautiful world, or even count those stars in the sky.

So, why are we still fighting?

Decided

2009-08-03T16:46:00.000+08:00

I don't wish to say anything more on the schools. No more comments. I've made up my mind.

Stayed at home today. Seriously, i really hate Monday programs. D&T took half the time. I hate it. I hate it when there are a lot of boring lessons, especially Mother Tongue. God, it suck. But, I didn't skip school today. I was really unwell. I felt that i had fever, but when i took the temperature, i didn't have. Shit.

When i was at home today, i really didn't know why did i played Maple. Ok, ok. It's time for me to grow up. I didn't feel like doing anything, i just want to sleep. Like i'm dead. Yeah. Whatever. But it's sort of unlucky. Being sick isn't a nice feeling.

I hope i won't regret my decision.

I wish i was richer, in hundreds of terms. Say, knowledge, MONEY(!!!!), maturity and so on. Because by then, i'll have nothing to be worried about. Because by then, i'm gonna be a millionaire!

Ok, lame.

不要以为我这样做是为了逃避你，你还不够资格。求求你啦，妒忌就说妒忌啦，不要说什么恨，好吗？你知不知道你这样做让我很反胃？够了吧你。其实你知是妒忌我比你认识他深，因为你明明还爱着他的。拜托，还轮得到你来恨我吗？我觉得我没必要向你解释。笨蛋加白痴。

What to do?

2009-07-30T17:34:00.002+08:00

Everything's done - Parent's signature, form is completed. I wonder what am i still waiting for. I'm wondering why am i hesitating so much. It's a rare chance, i finally can go to the school i yearn so much for the past 2 years. So what's up withthe hesitation? I don't understand, really. A lot of people disuade me from transfering, but some people persuade me to transfer too. If it's really approved, i'll miss all my friends, squad mates and teachers here, but the good thing is i get to have F&N. If it's not approved, i'll not get to take F&N, but i'll have all my friends, teachers and squad mates here, intact. So now what? I hate it when i'm feeling like that. It meant people's words really influence me. How i wish i don't have the need to go to school, then all this damn thing would end. How i wish.

Can i really back out now? I don't know. I won't think the principal will approve my special request if i tell him i want to go back cck for CCAs. I mean, if i'm tranfered there, then i'm officially a student from Zhenghua, and no longer part of CCK. How can i make such a absurb request, you tell me? And people tell me that CCK is a better school, in terms of academic and behaviour. People tell me CCK is near my house, so there's no need to spend money on the concession and new uniform. People tell me Zhenghua isn't such a good school as i've expected. People tell me Zhenghua is a very beautiful school. People tell me that i should follow my head instead of my heart. People tell me i should think of my future. People tell me all sort of stuff, but the main problem is, who should i trust? I can make a wrong decision once, but i can't afford to make the same mistake twice. I miss everything i have had here. I'll miss everyone i loved here. But, what should i do? I'm confused. I afraid to make a wrong decision. I'm afraid of everything. What should i do?

2009-07-28T21:57:00.000+08:00

I've decided- the transfer of school. I'll be going to Zhenghua tml to collect the application form. Anw, thanks for the help, Jerel Pa. The bloody blogger still can't post photos. -'-

Some of you ask me why i've locked my blog. Because i don't want strangers/bitches/bastards who doesn't deserve to come in my blog to come in. They shouldn't probe in my private life, which has obviously nothing to do with them. Those fuckards are just damn irritating. However, if any of you betray me, they'll obviously see this post and start their mother fucking jealousy again. (After a conference between my Bitchy Sisters.) And yeah, they'll be happy if my application is approved. But, hell no, i'm not gonna let them off so easily. If they rob 10cents from me, i'm a person who wants to rob back $10. I mean, please, they don't have the rights. Well, i shouldn't talk about them. They don't deserve one bit.

Of course, after the change of school, i'll still contact you all, including my squad mates. We'll probably still be close, and i probably will come back during CCA time and see you all having CCA. I'll miss the fun times we had; i'll miss the times we had to endure together as a squad. I'll miss Mrs Ching's patience and guidance. I'll miss Mr Leong's lips and scolding from him and Mr Kong. I'll miss those times Mr Kong walked past us and joked with us. I'll miss Ms Lim's shiny forehead. I'll miss Intelligent Ms Tan's dry and strict science's. I'll miss Mdm Jiang's Higher Mother Tongue lessons and forcing us to work. I'll miss PE, where we get to get dirty as a class. I'll miss my class, who blamed Amsyar for making Ms Lim angry. I'll miss Ms Sim's sexy back. I'll miss Yuelin and Santa laughs. I'll miss Puay Yun and her bitchy attitude. I'll miss my Bitchy Sisters when we get together and laugh our head off when that disgusting girl yawned and stared at us.

I'm going to start anew. I promise myself i'll let everything go here and start anew in a new enviroment where not a lot of people know me. I promise i'm gonna be a good student and make good use of my 2 years in Zhenghua. I promise i'm gonna be a good daughter to my Mother and be fillal to her no matter what. I'm gonna be a new me.

But, i'll always this school. The bitterness, the sweetness, the dryness, the endurence. I'll remember my squadmates, FOREVER.

2009-07-23T16:20:00.002+08:00

Damn, shucks blogger. I can't post photos, oh, bloody shiat.

Anw, i miss Nora. She's under home quarantine right now, and Kimberly and i miss her. I'm updating her with the events happening in school. Of course, including the one where Amsyar that bastard made Ms Lim angry. The whole class was very quiet for the first the first time after Ms Lim talked to Amsyar with disappointment. I mean, you can see it from her eyes. And few seconds later, the whole class went "AMSYAR!!!!". This was the first time our class liked a teacher so much, and this was the first time we defended a teacher. We forced Amsyar to go after Ms Lim to apologise to her. Well, Syazwan accompanied him. As expected, Ms Lim was really disppointed in Amsyar. Her reply was, "Let's see how you fare tml." or something like this. The whole class was blaming Amsyar. He got scolded he slept in class, and when he woke up, he told the teacher that her lesson was boring. I think he wasn't scolded because of the sleeping in class, because a lot others were sleeping. The line where he said Ms Lim's class was boring really broke her heart. Because she did things in order to please us. When we wanted to watch the Sixth Sense, she allowed us. When we wanted a break, she let us too. She was the kinda perfect teacher we've been praying for. She's not like Ms Ong, who ran away with our nametags, nor Ms Maz, who ran away with my diamond earring. She was patient, and the whole class really treated her as a friend.

A mess.

2009-07-21T13:02:00.002+08:00

Yup, my life's in a mess now. I'm hoping that the transfer application will be approve lah. But, i haven't applied for it yet. I wanted to wait a little more for me to think through my decision. There are people who encourages me to transfer, but there are also people telling me not to transfer. I'm messed up and irritated. More ever, this school isn't even my choice in the first place. I was really forced to come here. Of course, i made some friends, but i still don't think i fit in anywhere. I want to go to the school i like. Primary school- not my choice. Never mind, i endured 6 years. Secondary school- not my choice. 4 years. 6+4=10 years. How many 10 years are there in my life? It's my life, not my parent's nor MOE's. Why should they decide for me? My mother made a fucking statement that really pissed me off. "Before you turn 21, all your decisions will be made by your parents." What is this? What is this thing about 21? damn, you must as well buy a puppet. You can control it as and when you like, but i'm not your puppet. I'm your daughter. Shouldn't all big decisions regarding my life be made by me? Why can't i have a say in all these kinds of things? You think it's the right choice for me, but have you ever thought of my feelings? Have you ever thought what really suits me the most? Have you ever cared how unhappy i am whenever you made all those idiotic decisions without giving a damn about my opinion? Have you ever thought about what do i really want the most? It's your money that you love, not your daughter. It's your decisions that you respect, not mine. Have you ever thought about it? Why can't you spare a thought for my feelings instead of choking me with all those stress and things i don't want to do? You are making me feel terrible, don't you know? When i wear that uniform, i had already felt like skipping school again. Why can't you understand the real reason behind my stupid reason of being sick? Do you really think i'm sick? I hate the life that you gave me; i'm not your puppet nor dog.

Busy and crazy.

2009-07-05T13:49:00.003+08:00

What's wrong with blogger? I found a very nice picture of a swing and yet i can't upload it. Ok, never mind, forget it.

It's gonna be quite a short post because i'm busy, and i mean BUSY, nowadays. Tons of Chinese homework. And of course, Lead suck. I don't know why, but because homeworks are uploaded on it, that's why it suck.

Oh yah, i owe Aidil a BIG Happy Birthday. (:
Oi, Happy Birthday!!!! Hope you see this. :D
Hope you're never gonna get outta NS. Joke. :x

I've got a big big secret! Well, actually it's nothing. Never mind.

I'm going to buck up on my studies and score well for my EOY and try to get into a Pure class. (Well, impossible. I'll be grateful if i can get A-Maths.) A lot of people don't believe i can make it, especially Kevin, because i lost to him during the MYE. So while other's are going out or what shit, i'll be at home with my book, pen, correction tape and a notebook, studying. Great, this is my result of getting sucha crap shit result. Anw, this is not that secret, so don't be mistaken.

Oh yah, and thanks, Mrs Ching. (:

Sakae sushi!!!! (:

2009-06-27T17:50:00.003+08:00

Sakaed with girlfriends yesterday. Lol, we had a lot to talk and laugh at. We ate a red plate, then after eating we regretted it. It's suppose to be don't know what soft shell crab what shit one. Then in the sushi, there's egg (i think it's suppose to be the crab's egg), something that Yue Lin described as 'Tau pok', and a few unknown substances. It's disgusting! When you bite it, it's like some flour thingy on your tongue, then when you bite one more mouthful, it gets worst. Ew, i swear i won't eat another red plate ever in my life again. Shit, it suck! After eating that piece of garbage, i've no more appetite. We talked and laughed. Shortly after that, we called for desserts. We called for the waiteress and, what the heck! She gave us attitude siah. Then she said there's no Strawberry Smiles and Tempura ice cream, only left the Mochi. Then we say ok, give us 3 sets first. Then she went in the kitchen, brought in 6 mochis, which were a mixture of sesame and yam. Suck lah, the two were the most unpopular flavours. When i saw them, i really don't feel like eating already, can? Then there's this waitress who changed 3 into mixtures of lychee and peach. She told us this was compliments and are not included in the buffet. Wthf, not included in the buffet? What the hell is she talking about? It was explained very clearly to us that the desserts were part of that buffet. So what's her problem here? Luckily, when we ordered another round, another waiter gave us 4 lychees and 2 peaches. Glad we approached him. We paid the bill and wrote a feedback form, lol.

After buffet, we went playing around. Yuelin and i wanted to help Puay Yun makeup in Watson's, but Puay Yun don't want. Then okay lah, don't force her. We went BHG to try on super high heels. LOL, there was one i can't even stand up properly. When we were playing halfway, Yue Lin's mother took her home. So Puay Yun and i trained home, since there's nothing much more to play already.

I hate it when human beings are being ultra-sensetive.

Samantha: Oh.
aloysius: Sorry, i can't remember you. Either you rarely talk to me or you didn't leave an impression deep enough.

I love my girlfriends. <3

2009-06-25T22:40:00.003+08:00

Hello. :D Went Jurong Point with Samantha today. Actually she wanted to watch "Ghost of the Girlfriend's Past", then the timing like buey gam, so i suggest we watch "Drag Me To Hell", which timing is quite good. Went around walking and i bought a hairband with a huge rose on it. Samantha brought a hairband too, but of course no rose lah, lol. Hers was a ribbon. Went in to the theatre soon after.

"Drag Me to Hell" is a nice movie. I would rate it 4 stars. (: Very scary, the sound effect, so yeap, try not to go on ya own yeah? Samantha and i held on tight to each other's hand like the thing is going to come out of the screen or what, lol. Never mind. It is really interesting, and i really recommend it. But in conclusion, it is scary, yup.

Here's the scariest part of the Jurong Point trip:
Samantha wanted to eat Häagen-Dazs, so we decided to sit there and eat. I ordered one scoop of Tiramisu and she ordered one scoop of Cookies & Cream. The waiter said he would charge us as 2 scoops together, which was S$9.50 as shown on the sign board. Then we ate happily and what shit but when we got the bill, i almost fainted. $14, okay? The ice-cream charge was like $11+ and guess what, yes, the bill shows 2 combined scoops of ice-cream! Wow, i can watch another round of a movie with that money. God, if we knew that we won't sit down there and enjoy life.

We went window shopping for quite a while until i gave the idea that we go try clothes for fun. So we started wearing and taking and stuff. Well, i guess that's alright once in a while. We don't have the money to buy it, so it's not a bad idea to wear it even though you can't have it. Yeap, we tried until i wanted to go home.

I really want to go out with girlfriends tml, but my mother don't let me. What shit lah. I don't know how to describe her lah. She just broke her promise to me, wthf. Hate her.

SAM!: (:
qianyi: Are you okay?
jon: Oh, shut up. Big Bang rocks, for goodness sake!!!!
Kevin: Very funny meh? o.o
Dawn says: It's a nice song, yes. (:
samantha♥: relinked.

Please help her!!!!

2009-06-24T22:50:00.002+08:00

It's heart-wreacking to see such a little kid suffering. I'm really going to persuade my mum to donate some money to her via I-Banking, then pay her back the money in cash. The donation drive is ending on 29th June, 23:59. Please, help her.

Here's something i took from the source:

"Little Charmaine is down with cancer Neuroblastoma, stage 4, high risk. This is a form of cancer that occurs in infants and young children. For Charmaine case, hers is high risk as her cancer has spread to her bone marrow and bones.

Her doctor, Dr. Aung, has sent her family an email saying that they can bring little Charmaine to New York for treatment, however they need to pay an upfront deposit of USD $350,000 (About SGD $507,955 basing on the exchange rate of USD $1: SGD $1.45)

So far, according to the conversation that I had with Charmaine’s mummy, Cynthia, They have gathered about $50,000; this includes all their savings. However, that’s a far cry from the amount needed for the treatment."

I really sobbed after seeing this little girl's mum's blog. Here i am, living healthly as a 14 year-old kid, and there's a 4 year-old girl suffering from the 4th stage of a rare cancer. I know, not all of us are rich, but every dollar counts for that little girl. I'm sure everyone can just take as much as possible to help her, right? S$507, 955, how much does an average person takes to earn this much? I'm sure her mother would be taking odd jobs all around. I'm sure no mother in the world would allow their child to suffer that much pain. So, let's take it as some charity thing, okay?

Charmaine, may God bless you to raise that sum in time to get your illness treated...

Lame.

2009-06-14T15:26:00.003+08:00

BIG BANG!!!! ♥ Okay, their songs are totally awesome, alright? I mean, awesomeeeeeeeee. I went around downloading their damn songs last night. It's not to that kinda romantic romantic lah. You all should try their songs!
I'm crazy about facebook nowadays. Is that wrong? Lol, nope.
Ok, end of post. That's lame.

WHy is it so hard to forgive?

2009-06-09T18:06:00.004+08:00

Yea, why is so hard to forget? I just can't stand the thought of everything. I always thought time would heal, but i'm always wrong. But still, i still believe in it. I can't stand the way she looked, the way she talked, the way she stand and walk, i just can't stand her everything. Can she just get out of my damn life? Oh my God, i've never seen such a bitch. I stopped revenging because i've lost interest in everything i do. Why should i lose interest in my favourite stuff just because of her? She's not even worthy to be called a friend. Up till now, i still kept her secret which i promised her to not say it out. Is she worth it? I kept asking myself that question over and over again. Is she really worth killing some brain cells? She's such a noob. She keeps getting on my mind and irritates me. Can i just kill her or what shit? No, obviously. What should i do? WHat can i do? I'm in such a loss. I'm such a failure in everything. I'm going crazy. Crazy, yes. I just want to kill somebody. Her. I kept getting distracted because of that slut. F, it she really worth that amount of attention that i give her? I don't know. I really don't know. Ask her to shut her idiotic head up, please. Anyone. Anyone just give me some ideas, anyone, please. I feel that i can't hang on much longer. I need a break from everything.

jon & Justin: Yah, yah. Continue with your little chat. (:
Jacelyn!: Love ya too, lol. Tagged back. :D

Crap, crap & more crap.

2009-06-05T23:14:00.005+08:00

Yup, people, must be curious why i didn't mention a single word about my MYE results. Because it's super embarrasing, alright? So, don't mention, lol. Kept going to the gym recently, because it's finally holidays!!!! I can relax, sure. Wanted to go jogging with squad mates today, but was made to baby-sit my brother because my Granny went overseas and my mother had to work OT. Wthf, missed another chance. Oh, okay, never mind. This holiday is quite long, so there's a lot time to spend. I want to spend it wisely, but i've been sleeping like nobody business recently. Sigh. Wasn't able to go Suntec with the others because of some stupid reasons. :x Still didn't go today despite Qianyi's 'encouragement' and stuff. LOL. And thank her for wait for 307 and taxi with me. Well, shouldn't thank her after all. Yah, yah, whatever. She kept giving me that kinda act cute faces. Oh, thanks, Qianyi. 'I love you', yeah? Alright, alright, enough of crap.
I don't want to go to the hospital and face the truth. What if i'm really that unlucky? What if i'm the one which the stupid disease struck me? I don't want to end up like my uncle, i don't want. I still have a lot of things i want to do, still got a lot of things i want to share with my friends. A lot of things i'll regret if i'm going to just go like this. I don't want it. I want back my future. I want back my life.

jon: Oh, shut up.
Justin: Then why everytime i go boys' blog, they like have no idea what to post huh?
joceleen: LOL.

Edited. Edited. Edited.@ 1.06am
Got a feeling that this month is going to be a super boring month. Shit. I've to go back to school so-lot of times that i don't even have enough time for myself. And, of course, my gym sessions and Shumei's swimming 'lessons'. Damn, i really hate this thing. Since it is a holiday in the first place, why should we go back school? I'm really going to die of fatigue can? Tired of everything lah. I hate the sunlight, don't know why. I just feel like smashing it into a few billion pieces. I can't stand the idiotic heat. I wished it'll rain every now and then.

我累了。

2009-05-30T21:56:00.003+08:00

I'm going crazy from all these stuff. I knew i had made the wrong decision at the start. Now what? I'm lost and i'm going bonkers. I knew i can't withstand this for too long. Oh, God. I keep asking myself "Now what? What am i going to do?", but there is just no answer. I eat and eat and eat, but realised it couldn't solve any problem. I hate this feeling; i hate this stupid and irritating feeling. It feels like the whole world's going wrong, and it feels like everyone's a stranger.
I hate backstabbers, especially one like her. But surprisingly, i don't hate her. Had a session with Jesus today. He told me that i shouldn't hate that person, because He didn't want to see me skipping a lot of sleep just to think of a plan to sabotage that girl. I replied that i shouldn't, yes, but i just don't like the attitude of hers, the attitude which never fails to piss me off whether or not i'm in a good mood. I'm just irritated by the way she backstabs people and treat it as it has never happened before in front of the person. He said that i should bless the person. He said that it's her own personality to begin with, and the fact that you can't change it means that no matter how you hate her, she still won't change that attitude, would she? Yes, i agree with Him, no doubt. He also said that without love, there can never be hate. So when i hate her, it meant that i loved her. So, i should help her change her attitude to become a better person.
I don't understand. If there must be love, then hate in the first place, why should i even love her? I don't want to love a backstabber, i don't want to love a people who has an attitude like hers. I don't want. I want to love those who deserved to be loved. I want to love those who loves me. I don't want to love such a person. I don't understand why should i. But He said that if everyone was a backstabber, are you just going to hate everyone? Are you just going to isolate yourself when you shouldn't be doing so? Are you going to isolate yourself when everybody's backstabbing one another? Are you going to be one of the backstabbers yourself? I told Him that i won't. I promise and i swear that i won't. I won't let my friends be a backstabber. I won't let my loved ones be a backstabber. I won't let everybody be a backstabber.
Till then, i realised. It was me that i hated the most. It was me that i hated for not being able to change the fact that she was a backstabber. No one else was at wrong. My mistake for hating her instead of helping her and blessing her. I'm the one i had been hating from the beginning.
I'm tired. Really tired. I want a break from this world. I want a break from this big, big world.

To all: Okay, okay.

Kayaking.

2009-05-23T20:42:00.003+08:00

Went kayaking with squadmates at Changi today. Overall it was fun, but for the price of my shoes being spoilt, it's not worth it. LOL. Okay, forget about what i've said. The surviving skill is like.. What the hell? Be prepared to get yourself wet like a fish out of water. It is tiring, and the sea is quite rough when i'm doing a little of kayaking on my own. My head is still spinning now. Oh yeah, my nose turned red, although i had applied sunblock. Maybe that's fate. Oh, it hurts when i scratch it. Ew, i hate sun burning on my nose. That's like, digusting? Oh yah, anything. I'm going for my last lesson tml. It'll be fun, i bet. But i prefer enjoying the sea breeze on the shore. Maybe different people have different style of living? Recently completed watching the whole 25 episodes of 'Boys Over Flowers'. It's very touching, let me tell you. I'm gonna buy the soundtrack soon, yay(!!!!), and it's gonna cost me a bomb. Worth it, or not? I don't know? But if i don't buy it now, i'm going to so regret it in the future. So, end of post. Post some of the Korean song's lyrics, and they're really nice. :D

가슴이 어떻게 됐나봐
(English Version)

even though i tell it not to go,
even though i tell it to stop
my heart keeps going towards you
it doesn't wear out, it doesn't decrease
why is my love like this

one by one, i count and count the memories
my heart can't rest for even a moment
it'll just become baggage that becomes hard to control
why can't i even throw them away

really, my heart must have done something somehow
i must have become a fool that's blind from love
just one place, everyday one place
looking at the sad light that is you
even the tear glands must be broken
my tears won't stop
i love only you, only you
can't you just tell me?

even if i hold out my hands,
no matter how much i call out
you're always far from me
it'll be a love that becomes painful scars
why can't i erase it

really, my heart must have done something somehow
i must have become a fool that's blind from love
just one place, everyday one place
looking at the sad light that is you
even the tear glands must be broken
my tears won't stop
just one word.. the one phrase that you love
can't you just tell me?

i try to comfort myself with the lie
that i'm happy if you just smile
because the place you're going towards is not me
the lonely tears flow

really, my heart must have done something somehow
i must have gone crazy over this hard love
can't have you, can't forget you
waiting for you day by day

i must have gotten ill from missing you so much
from loving you too much
just one thing.. your heart, that one thing
can't you just share it with me

can't you love me

One More Time
by Tree Bicycles

each day is so slow and so hard
because no matter how hard i try to reveal my heart
you can't see it

i'm just resent the time that's gone by
no matter how much time changes, i'm always sad

one more time
even though it hurt, i should have loved a little more
i'll laugh for only you, i'll cry for only you

one more time
like the hot sun of the sky
i'll love all of you forever, only you

one more time

i miss the image of the warmhearted you standing beneath the umbrella
though i wipe these tears again, i'm always sad

one more time
even though it hurt, i should have loved a little more
i'll laugh for only you, i'll cry for only you

one more time
like the stars that shine brightly in the night sky
i'll love all of you forever, only you

one more time

i promise that a tomorrow that we both share will find us
i promise that a happiness that we both share will find us
i'll always be by your side

one more time
even though it hurt, i should have loved a little more
i'll laugh for only you, i'll cry for only you

one more time
like the hot sun of the sky
i'll love all of you forever, only you

one more time
oh my love for you
oh one more time
oh my love for you
one more time

Day in City Harvest's

2009-05-17T20:02:00.002+08:00

Saw Toro at City Harvest's today!!!! Super handsome siah, but his hair is like those kinda Africian girls {No offence!}. Yup, he came for a while only, to share his experience with us about his route to this religion. It's been a hard way, and a funny way, for him to get to know Jesus, but i can see he treasures it. LOL. Yup, i wouldn't forget Prof. Kim from Korea! Haha, she taught me how to not to hate a person, but to give blessings to the person you hate. It really works, okay? It's interesting, funny, and you can learn a lot of things from her. She has performed a lot of mircales all around the world, and when i saw the video, i was so touched. She owns the biggest church in the world, which is in Korea, and one of the top university in Korea. She's a cheerful women, i can see. I really enjoyed today's service. It's a very enjoyable one. I got to know a lot of new friends everytime {thanks to my cousin!} and sometimes, when i'm lucky, Pastor Kong is there to preach us too. Yes, a privilage. But, to be frank, i miss Debora. LOL. Sad. Didn't know why she is, and i didn't see her recently in service. ): Anw, Pastor Kong's friend is trying to get Rain to become aq Christian. Maybe he'll come to City Harvest's someday. Let's hope so. :D

Find myself back.

2009-05-16T23:21:00.004+08:00

I'm tired of this big, beautiful world. Everything i do seems to make everyone unhappy. But i just can't shut the fuck up and listen to other's opinion. Yes, damn stubborn. But what can i do? Turn back time and not be born or what? What the hell the world is expecting from me, huh? Can't i just lead a normal and peaceful life like anyone? I hadn't done such a big and wrong mistake in my whole life before. I'm the one who has ruined my own life. I'm the one who has cause the whole lot of problem. Yes, my fault, it's my fault that everything is going wrong in this world, happy? My fault that you are late for school, my fault that your bacon's gone overcooked that morning, or my fault tha you wore a wrong pair of shoe to anywhere? My fault? Am i really wrong? Is it just so wrong to be myself? Damn it. Did anyone saw what i'm good at? No. No matter what shit am i good at, everyone will have the same thing. So what's the point of living these 14 years? Friendship, failed; academic, failed; relationship, failed; health, failed; everything, failed. Big failure, so what? Don't i have the rights to be myself? Don't i have the rights to lead the life i want? Why is everybody poking their noses in my affairs? Stop all of your nonsense lah! I had enough. I want to go on a long, long break. Somewhere by myself. Somewhere i can find myself. Somewhere people don't really give a damn, except for the people i love. Somewhere the life is carefree and comfortable. Somewhere i am.

Edited @ 12.12am, 17th May 2009 {Sunday}

1. Samantha.
2. Jonathan.
3. Justin.
4. Joceleen.
5. Shuwen.
6. Shumei.
7. Kaimin.
8. Dawn.
9. Kang Xing.
10. Faye.
11. Alicia.
12. Kimberly.
13. Ziyuan.
14. Minru.
15. Tricia.
16. Izyan.
{Don't want to write already. If it's not enough, i'll just count back.}

How did you get to meet 7 ? {Kaimin.}
Through Enid.

What would you do if you and 15 never met? {Tricia.}
Nobody will have the same route as me when i go home.

What would you do if 1 and 20 date? {Samantha, Joceleen.}
Please. Samantha and Joceleen WILL NOT be together.

Have you ever seen 17 cry? {Samantha.}
Nope.

Would 4 and 16 be a good couple? {Joceleen, Izyan.}
Nope. Different race and i think their personality will clash.

Do you think 11 is attractive? {Alicia.}
LOL. She is the cutest junior. (:

What's 2's favourite colour? {Jonathan.}
Go ask him. I don't know.

When was the last time you talked to 9? {Kang Xing.}
Very long ago, since there's CCA standdown.

What language does 8 speak? {Dawn.}
Human language. She speaks whatever i speak.

Who is 13 going out with? {Ziyuan.}
He keep changing one, who i know. Must keep a record book next time. :x

What grade is 12 in? {Kimberly.}
Secondary 2. My sister. :D

Would you ever date with 17? {Samantha.}
She likes someone else.

Where does 18 live? {Jonathan.}
Near Sunshine Place there.

What's the best thing about 3? {Justin.}
Decisive!

What would you want to tell 10 now? {Faye.}
Junior, i miss ya!!!!

Whats the best thing about 20? {Joceleen.}
She is my lab partner. Without her, i won't be able to complete most praticals.

Have you ever kissed 5? {Shuwen.}
Nope.

What was the best memory you have with 21? {Shuwen.}
Laughing about a teacher.

When's the last time you're going to see 6? {Shumei.}
Er, Monday?

How is 14 and 12 different? {Kimberly, Minru.}
Kimberly is noisy, but fun sister. Minru is someone who will sit down and listen to you, but is pretty wild sometimes. :x

Is 19 pretty? {Justin.}
I guess so. :x

What was the first impression of 11? {Alicia.}
A quiet girl.

How did you meet 20? {Joceleen.}
She's my classmate, what do you think?

Is 1 your best friend? {Samantha.}
No. She's my junior. Normal friends.

Do you hate 12? {Kimberly.}
Hell, no. She's my sister.

Have you seen 18 on the last month? {Jonathan.}
Well, i see that idiot every school day.

When was the last time you said 16? {Izyan.}
So long already.

Have you been to 5's house? {Shuwen.}
Nope.

When's the next time you gonnna see 10? {Faye.}
Primary School's open house.

Are you close to 13? {Ziyuan.}
Ok lah, he's my Kukubird.

Have you ever been to a movie with 4 before? {Joceleen.}
Nope.

Have you ever gotten into trouble with 8? {Dawn.}
Nope.

Would you give 19 a hug? {Justin.}
Er, nope.

When have you lied to 3? {Justin}
Not once. Swear.

Is 16 good with socializing? {Izyan.}
Guess she's okay lah.

Do you know secrets about 9? {Kang Xing.}
No. Even if i know, i'm not gonna tell ya.

Describe the relationship between 12 and 14. {Kimberly, Minru.}
They're schoolmates.

What's the best thing about your friendship with 9? {Kang Xing.}
We're in the same CCA.

What's the worst thing about 6? {Shumei.}
She is too smart. Joking!!!!

Have you ever had a crush on 12? {Kimberly.}
TOLD YOU SHE'S MY SISTER! WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM HERE?

Does 14 has a girlfriend or boyfriend? {Minru.}
No.

Have you ever wanted to punch 1's face? {Samantha.}
I only want to smack her crush's face.

Has 21 met your mother? {Shuwen.}
Nope.

How did you get to meet 15? {Tricia.}
Primary school.

Did you ever physically hurt 3? {Justin.}
Nope.

Do you live close to 7? {Kaimin.}
Yes.

What's 8's favourite food? {Dawn.}
*Shrugs.

What kind of car does 1 has? {Samantha.}
Toy cars.

Have you travelled anywhere with 9 before? {Kang Xing.}
Nope.

If you give 14 $100 , what will he/she spend it on? {Minru.}
I think a lot of things. She's a maniac.

Finally it's done.

The Great Depression.

2009-05-14T14:45:00.005+08:00

Stuff it. I flunged my Maths test. Great. The most i can get is 23/80 {i think}. I forgot what i told Baey, Kimberly, Nora and Yue Lin. Okay, don't laugh. At least there's an improvement, alright? Damn, the paper was tough like hell. And we were suppose to finish the questions, including the graph, in 1 hour and 30 minutes. This time, there was no Paper 1 and 2. Should i smile or cry? I ended up leaving my Section B blank. I didn't have, and didn't want to, complete the graph. I was wondering why did i even bother to bring that stupid flexible curve. Oh yea, i didn't even bother to look at the graph questions. I have enough of inverse and direct proportion. I mean, inverse is alright, because i've been studying it the whole of last night. Even when i was doing my history exam, i was still busy recalling the method of inverse proportion. Great, talking about history, what the hell is the 'what what what' trade? I don't even know what's that. Bull crap. Stop the topic about history. My target was to score an A1 for it, but i doubt i can even score an A2 for it, please. I'm also very worried about my Chinese. 55 marks. I was so over-the-moon when i saw my test paper with those marks. But when i saw what was behind my marks, i felt like tearing the paper and feed it to the dogs. '55 -0.5' Oh my mother. I failed my Chinese by 0.5 marks!!!! But, hey, there's still a Paper 1 to pull up my marks. Please, please. Let me pass my Paper 1. I don't want to fail every subject, especially for English, Science, Mother Tongue and History. Others i don't really care. Except Maths. It's not that i don't want to score well. I mean, hello(?), who doesn't want to score well? But i just don't have the talent in Maths, and it takes time for me to understand the complex concept behind it. Geography is a topic about crap. You talk crap, write crap, study crap and learn crap. Geography is so similar to Science, why don't they just combine the both of it together? Geography is my failure too. It's not that i failed, it's just that i've no confidence about the upcoming Geography MYE. What do they expect, anyway? I lost my 2A textbook. I didn't even remember touching it. Oh yea, once. When i finally remembered that there was Geography on that day, i brought my 2A textbook. And guess what? People were using their 2B textbook already. Wthf. I was so enraged.
I saw someone this morning, who was the first to hear my weird weird voice. Lim Zi Yuan. Oh God. He was the first one to hear my funny funny voice and started laughing. Is it really funny? Okay, guessed it was. Yue Lin's turn. I didn't even dare to talk to her. I just made some stupid gestures to her. LOL. And she got it. No bad, not bad, quite clever, keep it up. After Yue Lin was Shu Mei. When i finally spoke with my funny funny voice, i forgot what's her reaction. :x Ask Baey if Mrs Ching want those people who's going to retake the test in staffroom, he asked if i had became a man. Yea, great joke. That's insulting, alright? I kept coughing and coughing. Can things get any worst than this? Retook Maths test. This time's paper was much more harder than the previous one can? We tried copying each other's work, but we were all at different questions. Damn. Went to buy drinks with Yue Lin and Kimberly, then home sweet home.
Felt dizzy when i reached home. Guessed it's because of the medicine. No wonder i've been feeling a bit dizzy during Maths exam. Mummy how i did for my Maths. I told her sure fail, confirm, prepare yourself for the worst. LOL. Mummy, i know myself the best. If my marks were around 30/40, i would tell you that there are still chances that i may pass. If i say fail, it meant fail.
How am i going to study for my Geography and Science when i about to faint? Save me, anyone.

jon: Yah, yah. You super clever. You look like Andy Lau and Edison Chen.
Jacelyn!: Okay lah. That person is worst than me. (: You're welcome!
jerel: Okay lah. At least haven't die. Yah lah, boh xim boh xim lo. Where's your Baby?

SICK.

2009-05-12T12:46:00.002+08:00

Yay!!!! {Or Boo!!!!} I'm sick. 38.4 degree. Great, and i've Medical Certificate for 2 days. It means that when i come back from school, i'm taking that stuffing Maths exam. Talking of Maths boils my blood. Damn Mrs Ching lah. Yes, i don't deny that she's a good teacher, but it doesn't mean she can call my parents and talk to them, right? Okay, so what, 2/42. Should i cry loudly and kill everyone? NO. There's no need to make such a big fuss. I know what am i doing, please. This is my life, so let me take charge of it. I don't need teachers calling one after another, telling my parents how badly i've flung my Common Test and things. I know when to tell them and when NOT to tell them. I know my limits, teachers. Yes, so please stop calling up and making me puke.
Oh yes, Dr Sonia's back!!!! She was the doctor whom i saw yesterday. Okay, it's because of some incident, so i, er, prefer her. (: Okay, so my mother and Dr Sonia began the session on my gastric. Bla, bla, bla. This session is super boring. And i was so, so lucky. Dr Sonia said gastric causes headache. I was so, so, i mean SO, elated. LOL. Because of some reasons. :D Yea. So, hopefully i won't recover tml, and there's another day of MC so i can skip Maths exam. Maths really suck lah. And of course, History rock!!!! My headache is really getting worst today. {NOTE: NOT BECAUSE OF GASTRIC.} Maybe it's because the medicine? Especially the flu ones. Made me slept at 9.35pm yesterday and woke up at 8.00am today. I'm really exhausted my the medicine thingy, yea? Maybe i've got swine flu? Oh no, GOD! *touches wood* Alright, alright. Let's hope we won't get it. :x I'm so bored and i've got nothing to do. that explains the longlonglonglonglong post today. Understand my feelings, guys. And i just don't feel like sleeping, i just feel damn giddy. Let's do something random, yea?

10 random facts about me:

Jacelyn Ng Jie Ling and Ng Qian Yi are loved!!!!

I want long hair. ):

I have a star bangle.

I love my softtoys.

Ziyuan is so maoless because he doesn't reply my message.

I'm alive, not dead.

I'm typing something now.

The MC is written in black ink.

Today is May 12.

I'm living in a house.

Okay, i think this will do for today's post. Bye. (:

Betrayer.

2009-05-10T12:35:00.004+08:00

A random photo which is very, very old. Just posted it because i'm feeling very random right now. Browsed through my albums and found a lot of old photo, including my squad's last year's promotion test photo. Well, isn't that a great thing? I thought i've deleted it, but to my surprise, it's still inside my album. Yay, let's pop some champange and celebrate!!!! Wthf, okay i'm lame.
Back to the main point of today's post. I'm really, really angry and disppointed in him, alright? I didn't knew what happened to me, but i just have this kinda feelings. I hate the feeling of being decieve, and yet when i gave him so much trust, he betrayed it. That's it, my limit. -'- What he takes me for? Yes, the world is full of liars and backstabbers, and i just didn't expect him to be one of them. I oh-so-mistrust him. What to do? I can't expect him to say sorry to me, huh? It's just, normal(?), for people to lie to each other, right? Maybe i'm a bit oversensitive? Maybe i should continue to let him lie out of the hell of me(?) and i'll just nod and agree. Bull shit. Maybe you may think what others will do is what excatly what i'll do, then you're wrong. Oh, stuff it. Can i just die? I'd never thought that you would lie to me. Too bad. You'll never have my trust and respect anymore. Just stuff yourself up.

Justin: Okay lah, hai hao only. :D
DAWN says: Yup, correct.
Faye: LOL. Okay, okay. I cut until like bull shit already. :x
AliciaTan!: Hms, then that's GOOD. (:
K♥IMIN: Ah, so is Pastamania's nice or not? You said not nice, then say nice again. Very confusing leh.
qianyi: I also don't know what's that bangala doing in my blog. :x Say until you very clever like that. -.-
Samantha: Relinked.

Outing with girlfriends

2009-05-08T21:20:00.002+08:00

Got back from an outing with Jacelyn and Qianyi. LOL. Stupid Jerel wanted to go pool, then he told Keith super late, and in the end there was no slot. No slot never mind, we were waiting for 3 o'clock to arrive, and Jerel just said no more pool. Wthf. So in the end, they went to my house and waited for me to change and makeup. They took really, really funny photos in my house, okay? HAHAHAHAHA.

Made some lame, lame jokes and i had to tickle myself to laugh (!). Jacelyn keep saying we very bad. WILL MEH? Okay, anything. Went to M. LAN and waited and waited for the comps. Very, very long okay? So, we continued to take funny funny photos. Well, i didn't have the time to post all the photos. Yeah, my brother is waiting for me to finish my post. Oh yeah, Qianyi went in the M. LAN and started screaming. Embarrasing, pleaseeeee! Made new friend(s). LOL. Maybe the one with the nice hoodie is my friend too? I don't know. Jacelyn just concluded that she was my friend. Well, so be it. Hm, finallyyyyyy, we had comps to play. Finish all those things that we wanted to do and Jacelyn's father started spam-calling her. Shiok right? Well, that's pretty lame. Anyway, we rushed home in the shortest time. Didn't have money in my card anymore, so Jacelyn and Qianyi gave me some money. God, i sound like some beggar, huh? No matter what, thank you! Instead of going home, i went to fetch my bro, because i didn't have anything more to do. Okay, that was a past time. Went home and my boring evening started. (*Yawns)

Fairytales aren't true.

2009-05-05T17:36:00.002+08:00

Sick, sick, sick, sick!!!! Ew. Think i'm suffering from Swine Flu, huh? I wasn't send home, but my nose was blocked all the while. Wished i've died. Fudge it. Going tried Jacelyn N.'s method by cutting my fringe myself. Turn out like bull shit. Damn. Kevin N. found out and he said i 'geh kiang'. Okay, okay. Forget about it then. So, whose fault is this? Jacelyn N.'s or mine? Okay, forget it too. I've got nothing better to do. Went YouTube and randomed for music videos. The Climb's quite nice, the graphic. The song is also quite nice. Haha, yeah, trust me. Want to go parade on Wednesday and Thursday. Really. But i'm sick. Gonna to the Doc's later. Boring. It's just no life lah. I like another doctor. She's better than the current doctor. What to do? Don't even know whether she's coming back or not. Hai. Spent a lot of money recently. I'm broke!!!! I'm feeling so lethargic right now. I could just fall asleep anytime. God, what to do? This year isn't a good year to begin with. I can't stop falling sick and stuff like that. How am i going to sit for my exams?

Lunch out with Friends.

2009-05-04T18:43:00.005+08:00

YAY (!!!!). Found my wallet at last. It was under my bed. *Gasps* How the hell did it get there? None of my business. All i care is that, MY WALLET IS FOUND! Met Jacelyn, Qianyi, Stupid Jerel and Patrice for lunch. Didn't know what to eat and Jerel got super fed-up because we can't find Qianyi. Okay, relax. Went to Pizza Hut's {My-Great-Idea-Which-I-Regretted-Later-On}. Qianyi was damn embarrasing okay? I just don't know how to describe things. God, God. Lucky i'm not in the same school as her. Okay, i ordered a plate of baked rice, which i forgot the nice-nice name. The food was bullshit. I should have ask my Grandma to cook for me. Ew. Suck. I swear i'm not gonna have the same baked rice ever again. Nope, not in my entire life ever. I left a lot of leftover. It's not really a lot. It's just a little bit (: So, we decided to do something disgusting to my poor little baked rice. Jerel poured pepper and ice, i poured coke and cheese and Jacelyn poured in the dried chili flakes. Went away, after footing the bill {DUH!}. Jerel and the Stead went home. After loitering and having a lot of fun with someone's voice, we decided to go library. Hey, that's a nice placeeee(!!!!). Took super lame photos and cracked super lame jokes. The place was frigging cold, thanks to Jacelyn's recommendation. Thanks a lot. Went home with Qianyi. Talked about someone. He's digusting, alright? Okay, i'm stopping here!

Bored to tears

2009-05-01T22:07:00.006+08:00

Heyyoh. Got a big and stupid headache. I didn't know how to manage my prioity. Bull-crap. Promotion test important or exams important? Both are VERY important to me, kayszd? I wanna die this moment. I didn't know a Mothers' Day can cost so much. Alright, alright. Enough of complainings and rubbish. Time for a decent post. *Laughs* Since when i didn't post A decent post?

Okok, what to talk about? Nothing. That's good. Because i didn't know what to post about too. Lame.

Ooooooh. Parade. Thursday. Sucks. Come school at soooooooooooo damn early and just for NPCC Day. Cool, isn't it? At least i didn't really participate in it last year. It was raining, and we said the stupid pledge in the void deck. No one heard us, though. It was seriously Booooo. Thumbs down. This year, hopefully it'll rain again. I'm gonna take my English paper in my quater uniform. Cool, huh? JOKE. Maybe we'll have good luck because of the beret? Hmhmhm, maybe? Let's try, why not? But it's really uncomfortable. The skirt if like superrrrr tight and i can't even climb a flight of stairs properly. Like that kinda office woman, yeah? Imagaineeeeeeee. I'll look weird. Uhhoh. Never mind. The class is already used to it (?????).

Maths. Sucks, sucks, sucks, sucks, sucks. I hate MATHSSSSS. Why the hell is there sucha stupid subject in the world? Maths are seriously NOT for me, okay? Don't know lah. Stupid calculations, and i'm always deducted marks for carelessness. Okay, that's life, huh? Hai. I've no life can? I'm trapped at home all day long and i want to die. Exams are stupid too, but Maths are more stupid. Okay. Whatever. Studying just suck, alright?

K♥IMIN: Relinked, Twinny <3
sya: Relinked. You pulled my hair meh? You should be dreaming. I was wearing my beret lah.
Faye: OF COURSE I'M GOING!!!!
Justin: She's NOT okay. Let her take you for OEL or something, then you'll know her power.
jon: She's always stupid whatttttt.
DAWN says: Okay sure. You too, babe :D

It won't just die so easily.

2009-04-25T20:33:00.001+08:00

I know you think that I shouldn't still love you,
I'll tell you that.
But if I didn't say it, well I'd still have felt it
where's the sense in that?

I promise I'm not trying to make your life harder
Or return to where we were

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

I know I left too much mess and
destruction to come back again
And I caused but nothing but trouble
I understand if you can't talk to me again
And if you live by the rules of "it's over"
then I'm sure that that makes sense

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

And when we meet
Which I'm sure we will
All that was then
Will be there still
I'll let it pass
And hold my tongue
And you will think
That I've moved on....

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Well I will go down with this ship
And I won't put my hands up and surrender
There will be no white flag above my door
I'm in love and always will be

Troubled mind

2009-04-19T21:36:00.002+08:00

We shouldn't have lied. I'm sorry i've lied to my heart and you. It's my fault. I'm the culprit who broke both of our hearts. I'm really sorry. ): Forgive me, Baby, alright?

Part one over. Let's get on to part two.

Gosh. Complications really suck, seriously. I want things to go back the way it used to be, everything.

tricia: LOL. Hai hao lah.
joceleen: Thanks.
JIAMIN: Hello Jiaminnn. (: Relinked!
sya: Thank you, thank you. I know. :D
Kevin: Why? SHE SUCK. YOU SUCK TOO. ):

Bye bye and shut up, idiot.

2009-04-17T21:51:00.005+08:00

Tsk. Girlfriends to stay together again. Doubt that's possible lah. So much things had happened. I've tried to think about happy things and had managed to keep myself cheerful today. I'm just the crappy Jermaine as before. I'm just the girl you all had known before. Everything didn't change, but our friendship did. We did. Our mindsets did. It can't be helped, can it? Yeah, indeed i hate to see us fall out one by one, but it's no longer my problem anymore. Do whatever damn you all want. It's not my problem. That's it. Bye bye. Get out of my life.
{FYI, I'm just pin-pointing one girl}

我们到底怎么了?

2009-04-15T20:57:00.002+08:00

Didn't know, and didn't expect it. I suppose it's just fate. Everything in the past in just bull shit. Nah, it's really meaningless to say anything. I mean, there isn't anything more to say right?

jonathan, Justin: Invited.
Kevin: LOL what LOL. Very funny meh? :x
DAWN says: Don't care him lah. -.-

Stupid hairdresser.

2009-04-10T21:29:00.002+08:00

Gosh, can things get any worse than this?

Went to the hairdresser's today. Wanted to cut my fringe slanted and cut a little bit of my side fringe. I asked and asked and asked her not to layer my fringe, then i don't know what the fuck is she doing, she went to layer my fringe! My mother! I really wanna kill her lah! Some more my side fringe was cut like gao sai can?

Think i'll just buy coloured contact lenses. &, yay(!), i'm going church tml after tution with Cousin♥ to celebrate Easter Day. Didn't went to Gym in the end and i'm already feeling very guilty. ): Hais. My target for 2.4km is 14 minutes. Got 15 minutes last time and became very lazy after that. Don't think i'll ever reach my target, unless i retest. LOL, but who the hell would want to retest? Retest means extra sweat, extra water for washing clothes and for consuming, and extra energy wasted. So what the hell do Jermaine Tan wants? I'm also not very sure. :x

I hate Mrs Ngoh. She suck suck suck suck suck suck suck suck okay? Another version of Ms Ong. Damn, how many Ms Ongs are there in our school? I'm going crazy!

DAWN says: Thanks!
joceleen, Jacelyn :B: Invited.
jonathan: Give me your mail. I'm just too lazy to check it again.

I guess it's just how life is.

2009-04-07T16:13:00.003+08:00

It was raining again. Thought of him suddenly. Oh-My-God.

Oh yeah, i don't know what the fuck is wrong with my tagboard lah. Just press on 'Tab' after you pressed on 'email/url' yeah? Damn it.

Headache suddenly siah. Bull shiat. I don't know what i wanted nowadays. Mood swings almost everyday. That's terrible okay? Oh my crap.

Today. Swapped places with Yuelin. Actually, sitting there was really fun. At least i get to laugh and things. LOL. Stupid Crispan is like so.. STUPID? Haha. Well, he is stupid. Just don't know how to describe his stupidness. Andandand, i scored full marks for my history today, then Enthu, Crispan and Yifei say i haolian. Wthf. When i get lower than them, kena shoot. When i get higher than them, i also kena shoot.

I've totally flung my Science test on Energy. Okok, i admit that my Physics sucksxzc (*Pway*), but this time i'm confident that i can get at least 5 marks.

We had the Chapter D7 lesson with 2/6 at the AVA room after school. Gosh, all i can say is that the video is super super disgusting and i was disgusted at all the holy shiat crap. I just don't remember being borned that way lah. They say a pregnant women's first 12 months are alike to having seasick. That's terrible! My Mama must have gone through all these bull shiat before giving birth to me. No wonder when actresses act as if they're pregnant, they always feel like puking. Never mind, why am i talking about this anyway? Crap.

Was suppose to accompany Tricia to Lot 1's library, but i wasn't feeling well, then didn't go in the end. Sorry, Tricia! ): Long time never go Lot 1. I miss Lot 1 alright?

joceleen: Okok, just watch out for your butt tml.
Jacelyn :B: That's good! LOL. (:
qianyi: Don't worry.. :D
Justin: Ok.
passerby: Give me your email and i'll add. Thanks.
tricia: LOL. Orbi. Go and have one Golden Retriver lo. It'll just follow you around. :P

2009-04-05T11:32:00.002+08:00

Private blog created! Ask to be invited on my tagboard and maybe i'll invite you. LOL (:

2009-04-02T21:36:00.003+08:00

Speechless. Yeah, i'm speechless.

Isn't it pathetic? When can all these be over? I hate him; and i hate all of you who listened to him. He is nothing but a pool of shit! Very big huh?; liar! He is just polluting all our mind okay? And i seriously agree with Enthu. Really, really, really agree with her. I hate that pool of shit manzsx! Damn it. He took away our everything. What rights does he think he have? No, he doesn't. Yeah, and critisising us always. As if he is perfect! Oh God, i think i'm gonna puke out my breakfast, lunch and dinner sioh. Eeyeeeeeer, ask him fuck off canszxc? Ask him take a look at the mirror first (pleaseeeeeeeeeeee!) before insulting others? Eh walau, go back home lah. Come here for what? Sucker. You're just a sucker for life. Ewwwwww. Dog siah. Cao sissy. Stupid maoless sissy. I'll hate you for life, bastard.

Edited.
Wtf, wtf, did they want me to do? It really pains my heart, really. But what can i do?

Current mood: Stupid, tired and useless ):

2009-03-25T20:58:00.003+08:00

Everybody will have times when he or she is feeling down, sure. Sometimes i just can't control my tears and it'll just drop without me knowing. It isn't just me. A lot and alot of things had happened. I'm trying to be strong. I kept telling myself i can't hold on, i can hold on. But one day i know, i'm going to fall off the string supporting me. I know nothing is forever; everything has it's expiry date. I've learnt to cherish things around me and will not let go a thing. I really feel like shouting and shouting and shouting, running and running and running so that i won't come back to reality. But can that be done? I just want everything to go back to normal, just like how it was during the December holidays and the very starting of the year. Girlfriends, i just want you all to know that i really really love ya. But what is done can't be undone. As i look at how people were going off from our clique, i really feeling like bursting out. Really. First, it was Wenling, then we were almost seperated by a stupid tiny bullshit incident. Oh my crap.

And Mrs Ngoh. Driving me to my grave, huh? Calling me Jiamin Jiamin whole day and i seriously felt like giving her a tight slap for that. What's my christian name there for? Put nice nice so teacher can see huh? Jiamin is my chinese name, so why don't she just shut the fuck up and call me Jermaine instead? And purposely ask me to dye back my hair AGAIN when the colour is approved by Mr Kong, Mr Leong and Ms Maz. Wa piang. Why not she just kill herself? We'll be damn happy. Everytime when we have lessons with her, she'll always be talking about her CABIN, like how good and kindhearted the CABIN is. In short, she hao lian lah. Take over CABIN bigger then Mr Kong lah. Everything need her approval, her stamp, her signature lah? What is she? Teach F&N and OEL niah. What is she? Make Mr Kong had to come and ask me what was i going to do next. I could feel he really don't give a single damn lah hor. Probably you were the one who kept pestering him to find me, is it? Bu yao lian. Tsk. I dye back or not she care for what? Everybody also don't care liao she care so much for what?

MINRU: -.- bhb. Hard to tag? Why?
DAWN says: Oh. LOL.
joceleen: (:

Believe me, everytime i see you, my heart just goes crazy.

2009-03-22T20:47:00.002+08:00

1.Besides your lips, where is your favorite spot to get kissed?
Cheeks.
2.How do you feel when you woke up this morning?
Stupid. Because we're going to rush down the Genting Highlands.
3.Who was the last person who you took picture with?
My brother. On the stupid Euro train unexpectedly ):
4.Would you consider to be spoiled?
No! I'll be a bitch by then!
5.Would you ever donate blood?
If depends.
6.Do you have a good friend of an opposite sex?
Yups (: Luck. aren't i? Joking!
7.Do you want someone dead?
No? I'm not evil like Minruuuuuuu.
8.What does your last text msg says?
'Byebye'.
9.What are you thinking of right now?
I'm thinking when can i have another outing with squadmatessssss ): Haish.
10.Did you wish someone was with you right now?
Yes, please.
11.When did you go to sleep last night?
Don't know leh. Probably very late. I was waiting up for people at the casino.
12.Where did you bought your t-shirt that you are wearing right now?
Queensway shopping centre. It's a class tee, alright?
13.Is someone on your mind right now?
Yup :D
14.Who was the last person who texted you?
Qianyi bangala.
15.People tagged to do this quiz?
1. Minru
2. Joceleen
3. Ziru aka Zhu :x
4. Jonathan Laodi.
5. Alicia
6. Dawn
7. Tricia
8. Faye
9. Kangxing
10. Kaimin twinnehy
Who is number two having a relationship with?
Nobody :D She's clean and pure and shiny and everything you can think of (:
17.Is 3 a female/male?
Female.
18.If 7 & 10 gets together will it be a good thing?
Nononononononooooo. I don't want my friends to be lesbians, alright?
19.What is number 1 study about?
How the hell would i know?
20.Is number 4 single?
Probably.
21.Say something about number 5.
LOL. Alicia uh? Erm, small, cute lil junior? Ohyah, she's smart :D
22.What do you think of number 3 & 6 together?
Won't bah..
23.Describe number 9
Oh. She's my junior from NPCC. Same primary school as me too.
24.What will you do if number 6 & 7 fight?
Call police.
25.Do you like number 8?
Duh! She's my junior, okayszcvdd?

End of Jacelyn Ng's quiz. Haha. Stressed. I'm lazy to tag. If they come to my blog and see and do, then that's good (: LOL.

Damn. I haven't signed my report book yet. Well, it definately sucked. I will tio kaopei derh, sure. I'm running away from reality. Oh crap, why i'm i using such stupid words? Okay, nevermind. I like it can already. Nothing much from Malaysia lah, except the 'too too train' make me feel like puking. Gosh, what the hell. And the bus back. Oh my crap. Really can dieeeeeee. Missed my squad outing. Seemed like they have lots of fun, huh? Now it's Laodi's turn to haolian already. Sad, sad. What to do? Hais.

MINRU: Glad that you know that (: And no, i don't miss you at all.
DAWN says: WoW! You extended? I didn't know that.. :x
Ziyuan: Stupid bird. Eff off lah.
ziru: Oh nononononono. I'll find a solution to this problem :D
Justin: Not good enough ):
joceleen: Yup, yup.
Jacelyn :B: Alright! Done your quiz anyway (:

2009-03-17T20:36:00.002+08:00

Went Bugis with Minru today. Oh, we did talk about lotsa things. And we spotted a lovely couple and a handsome old uncle quarreling. Well, i'm so-not trying to be sacarstic here. I'm really didn't scold back leh! *Clap clap* Rounda applause pleaseeeeeeeee (:

Thank you, thank you.

Really want orhorh seh. Tired. Just now Mdm Jiang just called my 'parent's' phone (which is my phone) and obviously the bodoh me went to pick up. Oh my God. Then i just randomly said that my mother was bathing. LOL. She asked me to hand in my work to her. Crap. I hadn't done lotsa them. Sian. I really don't know how to answer to her. Zzzzzxcszdcz.

My report book hadn't been signed yet. Wthf. The piece of rubbish can't be signed, alright? I'm wondering what the hell am i suppose to do. So sad that i got such a shit as my results. Bet you're saying boo, huh? Nononononoono, you'll get the same kinda bullshit results too, trust me. That's what you get for laughing at people. Wakaka.

Minru is super super evil can?!

Bodoh, i love you lah. Stupid, stupid, stupid.

Xuan: No, i'm not. Think i'm gonna die soon.
jonathan: Wrong. And Faye is my junior in Primary school lah, ben dan!
Kang Xing: Oops :x Sorry!
Justin: Faye is my junior in Primary school lah, ben dan!
MINRU: Yeah (; Of course it have to be! I'm born in the year of PIG mah :D

2009-03-16T15:13:00.003+08:00

Broke up. Big deal? Nah.

Friends have been keeping a lot of things from me recently. What the hell, okay? I just knew everything yesterday alright? Aiseh, sian lo. You all like that, sua lah. Lucky i called someone then find out. Zzzzdxcx. Ask you all no one said a thing. I like retarded like that seh. You all very song lah, keep me in the dark everybody talktalktalktalk. Then Qianyi say call back, in the end i stand in the bus stop tried and tried to call her like stupid also number busy. Chiong home and forget about the phone call. Dulan siah. Next time got anything don't need tell me already lah. Sian lo.

Chatted with Jacelyn yesterday. Hadn't had a good chat with her a long time already. Yesterday was really a good one, if not we're really drifting apart. Say want go out want go out, but in the end everybody busy. LOL. This week is really a piece of shit okay? Camp ends at Sunday and Mrs Ching still expects us to go school very early to arrange up the file. Please lah. She want us to arrange still want us bring back the file to her. She can't collect and then give it out to us on that day huh? She lazy or i lazy? I was lugging the whole lot of books home on Friday and chionging for Kevin's birthday party, and then she didn't even bother to help us lighten the load. Wthf. Crazy woman. So, in the end, i heck care and just went for my Higher Mother Tongue. Had to peep in the classroom to check if Mrs Ching is inside before i can see Enthu. Unfortunately, she was there. Sianed. Went back to the classroom instead.

Took stupid videos. Kept laughing and laughing. We were doing an interview on our views of don't know what shit. Then Kevin say like he was very happy his parent's pay get deducted and was super happy that his pocket money went down. We thought it was just testing, but we found out it was not in the last minute. But we just walked off. LOL.

So now what? You're gonna blame me for everything? It's not my problem; it's our problem, okay? Get this straight. Your attitude is like, don't know, busy and always giving me excuse for things. I know you are busy, but so what? You mean i'm very free? Your concern to me isn't a bit of friend's concern to me. I thought we'll last long, but it's just a illusion. Everything we had for this 2 weeks are like strangers to strangers. No point continuing our strained relationship. I hate this. I rather we'd continued to be friends. But, it's just bull shit in the end. Game over.

JIAMIN: Hellohs! LOL.
DAWN says: Nevermind. I'm not blaming you anyway (:
jonathan: Too bad your father don't allow. And, why you ask so much about Kangxing? :x
Kang Xing: It was not you and Felice, i know. So, no need to apologise. Just that it's my view towards your squad girls. Apologising is not gonna change anything.

2009-03-15T19:09:00.003+08:00

Waseh(: Just got back from camp at around 1pm+. Haha, to think i had really survived the camp. I thought i'll die halfway. *touch wood, touch wood* LOL. I've shown a lot of emotions during the camp. Angry, happy, scared and blablabla.

It is really fun for the Saturday morning's icebreaking games. Had to interect more with the Sec1s. After that, went bunk to put back our things. I was the bunk leader (wakakaka) but we didn't put all the things properly, then kena scolding. My bad, guys. Sorry! Yeah, there were a lot of miscommunications. I was like running up and down the staircase- from the boys' bunk to the girls' bunk, then from the girls' bunk to the boys' bunk. Alright, that is already like PT for me already :x Just joking! After that, we played games and had our lunch.

And just let me skipskipskipskip to evening :D We had our dinner (duh!) and after that Cheok Yong (sorry if i misspell!) help me with the washing up, so i can look for NCOs for my medicine. As i was waiting for my medicine outside NPCC room, one of the NCC guys showed NCOs some photos and they were like laughing and laughing. Didn't really care about that lah. Just continue standing in senang diri position. Suddenly, NCO Joel placed a photo on my left and asked me to turn around. I obeyed and i saw a photo something. That was like so 'real and scary' can? LOL.

More games.

THE FIRE GAME! Ohmy! That's the best thing of the camp! We need to try to blow away each other's candle and burn their strings. Our group allied with Chiobu's group. LOL. Then it was like damn funny lah!
Sec 1 from Chiobu's group blew away my candle.
Me: Why the hell did you blow away my candle?
Sec 1: Correct what. You not from our group what.
Me: What the. Don't you know our group allied?
Sec 1: Oops. Sorry!
Haha! But in the end we didn't win. But at least we learned something from this. Responsibility. Big word and big meaning. Because there were suppose to be people who are guarding our strings, but i don't know for what reason, they just went off. And that is why our second string is burnt off. And that is why we didn't win.

Had our tresure hunt. We need to go down to the basement for our first clue. Oh-my-crap. BASEMENT. I was stunned! I'm really afraid my dark and then when i was down in the basement, someone switched off the lights. Crap. I squeezed and squeezed and squeezed Justin's hand. Sorry, Justin! LOL. The most scariest part was not the shooting range (A lot of people should know by now why the shooting range is scary), it's the process. When we finally came out, phew! Just before i can phew, NCO Sarah says that although we've walked one big round, we were not managed to find the clue, so therefore, we need to go down another round. Oh-my-crap-again. Luckily, we didn't go really deep. Although we didn't win AGAIN, but we really had fun lah :D

Supper. Green bean soup. Same as last year's. I didn't feel like drinking, bacause i'm quite tired.
Senior: Eh, don't pretend you allergy hor. I saw you drinking last year.
Me: Senior, i suddenly allergy leh.
Senior: *Laugh*
I kept making up stupid reasons just not to drink. I even said my mother say after 11 cannot eat anymore. LOL. And obviously, no one believed me .__________.

Went up and bathed. Group 1's girls were bathing first, because we were doing the duty at 1 am. Really had a bath, unlike last year, i didn't really bathed. At least this time i used soaps and last year i didn't :x

Back to bunk and slept. My squad girls tried telling the Sec 1s to keep quiet, but they didn't listen. I feel very angry and irritated, as well as pissed off. Hellohs, we were their seniors! At least they can show some respect for us right? And that time was like 12 plus. I was planning to sleep to somewhat recharge for my duty. But the Sec 1s were like noisy okay? I really just felt like pumping them after several warnings, but my rank is not enough and i didn't want to spoil anyone's mood. It's like they treat like invisible can? Ask them keep quiet then they kept quiet for a few seconds, after that heck care us. In terms of experience, seniority, education, age, we were all ahead of them. Can they just show us some face? Or did they really think that was their home? Their home that they could make as much noise as possible? I don't care if they defy their parents or whatsoever at home, but this is a NPCC camp, a camp for you to be more disiplined. I didn't say we Sec 2s didn't talk. Yes, we did say 1 or 2 sentences, but after that, we ZIPPED UP. And the Sec 1s? Just continue and continue like a train. Noisy. Just talking rubbish. They have so many rubbish to say that they no need to sleep right? I'd already warned them there'll be PT this morning, but they just don't care. Alright, from how the Sec 1s behaved, i see them as people who only behave with NCOs or Seniors around. Too bad they aren't in a good relationship with them. Why not try to suck up to them, huh?

It wasn't a good night. Too bad.

Falling in. I have no much comments. I'm trying hard not to use vulgarities in this post. But seriously, some Sec 1s really have some attitude problem, alright?

Today, there isn't much fun things. But i have two questions.
1. Does the chicken come first or the egg come first?
2. Osama and Obama. Why the difference is only 1 letter and yet one is a terroist and another is a president?
Difficult huh? Got some stupid answers back. From Yangxuan, from Winston, from Senior Weeming and from Felice.

Blablabla. Went for lunch with squadmates and ended up home after that.

Random quiz
1. Where is the person you want the most now ?
Him?
19. Do you sleep with the TV on ?
Of course not! Waste of resources and monaye!
20. Are you too forgiving ?
Don't think so bah.
21. Have you ever wanted to be a firefighter ?
Nononoonoono.
22. Do you still have pictures of you & your ex ?
No.
23. Who do you miss ?
Miss? My toy dog.
24. What was the last thing you put in your mouth ?
Gummy bears!
25. If you could have any car what would it be ?
Sports car? Mazda? Oh whatever. I don't care.
26. What are you stressed about ?
How to complete my homework in time.
27. Do you have anything in your pockets right now ?
Dig you pocket lah.
28. How many windows are open on your computer ?
4 (:
29.In the past week have you gotten sick ?
Ohyeah. I did.
30. In the past week have you gotten your hair cut ?
Oh that reminds me! Thanks!
31. Who was your last call from?
Marmieeeeeee.
32. What can't you wait for ?
My birthday!
33. What do you do most of your time ?
Folding the stars i'm trying to complete.
34. How much clothes do you have in your closet ?
Sot. Do i need to count them?
35. On a scale of 1-10 , how good is life ?
8.
36. Will you and your ex ever get back together ?
Get back? For what? Over means over already.
37. Do you think you'll be a good mother/father ?
How the hell would i know? I'll get depressions first lah.
38. Are you high-maintenance ?
No.
39. Do people hate you ?
Do i have to survey them?
40. Do you trust your best friend ?
Is there someone i trust?
41. What's your pets name ?
Bibi.
42 . If you could change one thing about yourself , what would it be ?
Everything. Everything is one thing.
43. Where is your father ?
None of your bloody problem.
44. Does the person you love know you love him/her ?
No.
45. If you could tell him one thing , what would it be ?
Tell him one thing? I'll just be happy to talk to him as a friend. LOL.

Andandand.
My results:
English Language: 56.7 (C5)
Higher Chinese: 47.3 (D7)
Mathematics: 30 (F9)
Science: 66.8 (B3)
Geography (Revised): 72.9 (A2)
History (Revised): 62.9 (B4)
Literature (E): 70.7 (A2)
Home Economics: 73 (A2)
Remarks:
Jermaine should channel her energies towards more constructive learning.

Not bad, not bad. At least got 3 A2s (: Good job, Jermaineeeeee! Keep it up!

SAM!: (:
Dawn says: No point. Broke already :D
Jacelyn :B: No point. Broke already :D Maybe you can call me and i'll tell you what happened.
Ziru: Thanks, Zhu!
jonathan: Laodi! You should come for camp! It's supersuper fun!
ta: -.-
kuku:D: Kuku love to smack Mr Matthew's ass!

2009-03-10T20:38:00.003+08:00

你指向远方爱情很晴朗
笑问不如今后就我们俩
怕泪会反光钻进你胸膛
但那不是感动是泪无法储藏
把美梦锁上以为是天堂
羽翼折起在你身边静静躺
却只能用目光空中翱翔
还得乔装安份靠在你肩膀

放了爱为了爱这不是我
该怎麼生活放了爱

你说你喜欢我笑得开朗
你越温柔我越不想撒谎
我已办不到你想要的那样
客气地配合你我感觉更勉强

别人的幸福何必要模仿
心不在何苦留躯壳在身旁
加满自由我要无重量飞翔
就算以分离收场

放了爱为了爱这不是我
该怎麼生活放了爱
会明白有种拥有叫作放手

我的心为爱流离失所
紧握最后回家的线索
等到寻获真正的我
证明我决定没有错

放了爱为了爱这不是我想要的生活
放了爱你会明白有种拥有叫作放手
放了爱我放了爱

aku cinta kamu<3

2009-03-09T17:29:00.004+08:00

Ohmycrap. Sticky, foolish, stupid and suckish day.

Suckish & foolish- Had PE today. I thought i had recovered from my sickness and all that crap, so i started running and running even with girlfriends warning me not too. Didn't even ran back and i almost fainted. Crap. My face was very white lah, the don't know who tell me :x And my head was hurting and spinning; stomach and worstworstworstworst. I didn't knew why had i did such a foolish thing. In the end, Enid and i went back to class to rest. Gosh, i wished i had never come to school today. But since i promised Enid, i won't break my promise :D

Sticky and stupid- Went Bobohut with Tricia after school. Borrowed $1 from her to buy a cup of Milktea. Laodi was standing in front of me when Tricia passed me the Milktea. I didn't hold it properly and 'PIAK'! The cup broke(?), kenaing Laodi's shoes and my hands, shoes and skirt. Had to ash my hands in the rain because i was simply too lazy to walk all the way down to CC just for my hands. Went home and wash my sticky legs immediately.

Crap. What a colourful day. Raining and i didn't had an umbrella, so Tricia had to escort me home. Thanks, Tricia! (:

I wonder if there is CCA on Wednesday. Seriously, i'm too lazy to go there. I'm just looking forward too the upcoming camp, which obviously need me to carry a lot of things again ): I've lost my Ezlink already. Other than buying standard card, what else can i do? Hey, thinking of the positive way, i'm an adult! I'm mature (i'm always mature :D)! Yes! Don't ever, ever call me lil kid, alright? I know i'm not tall, but i'm also not short, can? :x Okok, i'm talking nonsense again and again. Why did i even start this topic? Poo.

I better start planning for my 1 week holiday. There's so much to be done, yet there is only one week. Better not waste time, yeah? :D

Stupidstupidstupid B.

<3

2009-03-07T16:41:00.005+08:00

B, no matter how hard is it for you now, just hold on. Let us cherish every moment we have with each other. I know you are very busy nowadays, but i don't mind. Jiayou(: I'll always be there for you, always be there to support you. B, let's stay together. You'll always be my B :D Aku cinta kamu, B. Muarks.
Hello, byebye. Hello, byebye. Hello, byebye.

(:

joceleen: Haha. I know about that already :D I'm sick, that's why ): Really miss you all lah!
QIANYI: LOL. I know you got camp meh? Nehmind, nehmind. Settle liao jiu hao (:
Jacelyn.N: Alright. Relinked.

2009-03-06T12:43:00.009+08:00

B, what is love to you? I don't want us to be separated after just a while? B, when i say 'i love you', it isn't just talking cock. I really love you. B, can we stop all these and start anew? B, sorry i'd lied to you about so-alot of things. But if you really think a break will be best for the both of us, i respect your decision. No matter what, i'll always be there for you <3
Let me just annouce something- JER IS SERIOUSLY ILL.
Just start from the beginning. I was just having some mild stomachache yesterday night, then it started to make me roll and roll and roll in pain on my bed. Finally, at 1.50am, i had diarrhoea {ohmycrap, i forgot how to spell that!}. It was really awful. After returning back to my bed, i felt like vomiting, but didn't. Gosh, am i going to DIEEEEE?! Just joking! Typical me, huh?

I want to attend today's parade! Today's the internal muster parade, wonder what's going on. But, given my condition, can i attend it? I'll probably faint when practicing my drills. But what else can i do? ): I seriously miss my CCA and girlfriends.

I'm tired of this world.

Edited.
王沺裁 is really, really handsome can?

Aku cinta kamu, aku rindu kamu

2009-03-05T15:31:00.003+08:00

Kristine Mirelle - Let go
Every time I found the words to say
What I thought would make things okay
I kept it all inside
Slowly drowning in my pride
I never could admit my own mistakes
Some how I thought things would fall into place
And I made a change too late

Here, past all the lights
Where everything's clear
Nothing seems to change
How I love you and now
You're gonna leave
I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go

Maybe I just thought I had you here
I thought that you would not go anywhere
I abused my position and I didn't care
And now that you no longer turn to me
And it seems that you got over me
I can hardly breathe
You no longer need me
I'm just sorry I found out late but all the choices I Made I thought of me
And not how it'd be to watch you walk away
I know I'll never make it right but everyday I try
In hopes you might come back you're where my heart's at
I have to find a way

Here, past all the lights
Where everything's clear
Nothing seems to change
How I love you and now
You're gonna leave
I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go

And everytime I think of you
It's hard for me to think of what I can do
I used to have you here beside me
I just want you here beside me baby
How can the sun keep shinin'
When my whole body's cryin
I know I never told you why
I need you in my life

Ohohohooooo

Here, past all the lights
Where everything's clear
Nothing seems to change
How I love you and now
You're gonna leave
I'm just slowly dying here inside
Trying to let go

Martin Kember - The Last Song
It's been over a year since she was here with me
And only recently that I began to heal
So I moved on finally seeing someone new
And that's when that call came through
Said she still thinks about me each and everyday
It caught me so off guard, I had no words to say
Now my heart's beating fast cause she awoke inside
Those feelings I thought have died

When the last song is over
It's time to move on
And I know I should tell her my feelings are gone
But there's still something missing I can't seem to find
A part of me I left behind

So I snuck out to see her against my own advice
Knocked on that old familiar door, I went inside
I look around and see what used to be our home
Now she lives here on her own
Woo oh oh oh

She starts explaining how he left and went away
I asked how long ago, 8 months ago today
Now my heart's beating fast
Can't handle what I see
Her baby looks just like me
Ohhhhh oh

When the last song is over
It's time to move on
And I know I should tell her my feelings are gone
But there's still something missing I can't seem to find
A part of me I left behind

It's been a part of me missing since you've been gone
And I can't even tell you how it felt so wrong
But there must be a reason it happened this way
As long as you're home, I'm okay

When the last song is over
It's time to move on
And I know I should tell her my feelings are gone
But there's still something missing I can't seem to find
A part of me I left behind

When the last song is over
It's time to move on
And I know I should tell her my feelings are gone
But there's still something missing I can't seem to find
A part of me I left behind

When the last song was over
I tried to move on
For so long I pretended like my feelings were gone
But there's been something missing and now I can find
That part of me I left behind
She's the part of me I left behind

Savage Garden - Crash and Burn
When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please to tame your wild wild heart
I know you feel like the walls are closing in on you
It's hard to find relief and people can be so cold
When darkness is upon your door and you feel like you can't take anymore

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

When you feel all alone
And a loyal friend is hard to find
You're caught in a one way street
With the monsters in your head
When hopes and dreams are far away and
You feel like you can't face the day

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

And there has always been heartache and pain
And when it's over you'll breathe again
You'll breath again

When you feel all alone
And the world has turned its back on you
Give me a moment please
To tame your wild wild heart

Let me be the one you call
If you jump I'll break your fall
Lift you up and fly away with you into the night
If you need to fall apart
I can mend a broken heart
If you need to crash then crash and burn
You're not alone

Chris Brown - With you
I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight
Said the hearts all over the world tonight
I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight
Said the hearts all over the world tonight

Hey lil mama
Oo u a stunna
Hot little figure
Yes you a winner
And I'm so glad to be yours
You're a class all your own
And oh little cutie
When you talk to me
I swear the whole world stops
You're my sweetheart
And I'm so glad that your mine
You are one of a kind

And you mean to me
What I mean to you
And together baby
There is nothin we won't do
Cuz if I got you
I don't need money
I don't need cars
Girl you're my all

And oh
I'm into you
And girl no
One else would do
Cuz with every kiss
And every hug
You make me
Fall in love
And now I
Know I can't be the only one
I bet its hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of they life
Who feel
What I feel when I'm
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you
Girl
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you

Ooh girl
I don't want nobody else
Without you theres no one left and
You're like Jordans on Saturday
I gotta have you and I can not wait now
Hey little shorty
Say you care for me
You know I care for you
You know that I'll be true
You know that I won't lie
You know that I will try
To be your everything

Cuz if I got you
I don't need money
I don't need cars
Girl you're my all

Yeah, oh
I'm into you
And girl no
One else would do
Cuz with every kiss
And every hug
You make me
Fall in love
And now I
Know I can't be the only one
I bet its hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of they life
Who feel
What I feel when I'm
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you
Oh oh
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you
Yeah

And I
Will never try to deny
That your are my whole life
Cuz if you
Ever let me go
I would die
So I won't front
I don't need
Another woman
I just need
Your all or nothing
Cuz if I got that
Then I'll be straight
Baby you're the best part of my day

I need you boo
I gotta see you boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight
Said the hearts all over the world tonight
They need they boo
They gotta see they boo
And the hearts all over the world tonight
Hearts all over the world tonight

And oh
I'm into you girl
And girl no
One else would do
Cuz with every kiss
And every hug
You make me
Fall in love
And now I
Now I can't be the only one
I bet its hearts all over the world tonight
With the love of they life
Who feel
What I feel when I'm
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you
Girl
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you
Ooh ooh
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you
With you
With you, with you, with you, with you, with you

Edited. Went home at 10.50am today. I'm not feeling well, alright? Okay, that's not most of the reason. The main reason was that i didn't want to have the stupid Maths test. I mean, why do we have that? Make my heart more pain by failing it? Or let my parents smack my butt? It's just total crap, can? Can't i just have a break? Why must we have so little time for play and so much time for studies? Life is so short and full or regrets, why must we live it in a miserable way? Why everyone must control what we are suppose to do and what we aren't suppose to do? I'm so sick and tired of it. I hate it. I'm sick and sick and sick and sick of hearing the teachers nagging and nagging. I'm sick and sick and sick and sick and sick of teachers telling what my hairstyle should be like. I mean, HELLOHHHHS(?), it's our hair! They huanlo so much for what? I see no point can! I seriously need a break. Can the Earth stop rotating just for ONE DAY? Can we just stop our work and sleep for the whole day? There's no meaning to life. I really don't know why had we even bother to come to Earth. I'd rather be an alien and live outer space.

&&, Perfect Cut 2 (一切完美2) really rocks (:

B, i love you<3

2009-03-04T11:30:00.003+08:00

Hellohs! Haha, back to posting, sure (: Didn't go to school today, and i'm probably going to tell my girlfriends the truth to it, alright? Don't miss me today can? I know i sound like an idiot talking to myself. Ohnononononono. Anw, sports heat was cancelled today. So saddening lah. I thought there'll still be people who can accompany to me to get an MC as Ms Maz only accepts MC. Sucha freak. If she accepts letter, things will be much more simpler, yeah? Haha. Andandand, NGQIANYI(!), why did you off your phone? I hate you lah. ):

Going to do a lot of things during March holiday. Great things like going Bugis (yoohoo!) and bad things like going to Malaysia again (BOOOOO!). I'm so gonna make sure i make my friends miss me like ~~#$%^&*()~~! LOL. JUST JOKING, GUYS! Going to Bugis to make sure i get my extensions and tattoo ASAP yeah! :x But no $$$$$. Awwwwwwwwww. Sadded. And of course, i'm going to Malaysia for like 4 days? Signs. I don't even know will i be involved in the Orientation Camp. I bet i don't have the time. At most i only can stay for a day and go home at night. I wanna dieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I'll smuggle on gums, don't worry (:

I'm reallyreallyreally looking forward to my holidays despite all these. Nah, i'm crazy.

joceleen: Thanks!
SAM! (:
MINWUUU!: LOLLLLL. Nah, it's NOT nice. Sad huh? Too bad!

Baby, tell me the truth.

2009-03-01T13:03:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday Kaimin Twinnehy! <3

2009-02-28T20:52:00.002+08:00

Finally sorted some misunderstandings. Nah, that wasn't really the IMPORTANT lah. The most bigbigbigbigbig misunderstanding wasn't sorted out yet. She still don't know and as for me, i just don't know. Actually, i don't feel a thing right now (that's weird!). Maybe i knew long ago that the feeling was gone. Maybe people can't feel anything, but we knew the feeling entirely. We knew we were going to be seperated soon, we knew we are different already. We didn't have to wait till we open our mouths. Gosh, yes, we know.

What if we suddenly think of each other and the happy moments we had with each other, will we be as close as before?

2009-02-26T17:15:00.004+08:00

First thing, YANGXUAN(!!!), is that drawing done by YOU? Okay, good effort, but i don't know what are you drawing. Sorry yeah :x

Second thing. STUPID SONGHONG BETTER WATCH YOUR BUTT! Jiamin and i will be coming up with plan soon to make you cry! :D Who asked you to bully us? Give you a lot of chances liao hor! LOL (:

Third thing. Just don't understand things. I don't know if i've been thinking the wrong way or what. Maybe it's just not me, it's us. We don't know how to sort things out clearly. I don't want to just lose a friend for no particular reason. How can i make you understand things, huh? I was so disappointed whe i got back my Chinese composition, partially because i barely passed (56/100) and partially because of you. We had been the bast of friends, and even the worst of friends. I've obviously no idea who you were talking about in it, but since teacher had read it out so clearly, shouldn't you tell me? Don't tell me it was made up; i don't believe that crap, alright? Why wouldn't we be as great as before, as happy as before, as cheerful as before? Why did we stop all those phone calls? Why did we have lesser and lesser words for each another? Why did we went out together lass and less often? Why did we stop cracking jokes for one another? Why did we stop all these laughter and started this icy cold thing? Why did we treat ezch others like strangers? Why did we stop confiding in each other? Why did we became so cold? Why aren't we the same as before?

SAM!: (:
joceleen: Haha. Yeah.

Guess i'm wrong about you.

When will you realise what the hell are you talking about?

2009-02-21T22:44:00.004+08:00

Merry christmas and a happy new year. I've lost my fucking wallet. Actually, not much imporatnt stuff are inside. Luckily i didn't bring much money (:
Well, i'm just consoling myself. Hey, i mean, what's wrong with it?

I don't need all those, i tell you. What do you take me for? A toy? When you want it you take it; when you don't want it, you dump it? Oh please. Friends? Nononoono, friends won't do that to friends who are in need for a partner to chat, alright? I've a lot of questions to ask, but the main thing is: Can you change your suckish attitude? If you don't think there's a problem with your attitude, then i'm telling you that a lot of people hates your attitude lah hor. Just take it as a reflection lah. At least listen to me once. I won't be wrong this time round. Stop screaming over small things and making a fuss out of it. Hey, i mean, it's only the SEAT right? It's not like its you BUTT? Stop being so kan-chiong. People can go up so relax-relax for classes, can you stop being such a party spoiler? There's still a million of things i have yet to say, but these are the most important ones.. Change it for everybody's sake, alright?

When will you realise what the hell you are talking about?

2009-02-18T20:46:00.002+08:00

*yawns*
Another boring day had just passed by. Actually, I had a lot of fun, be it class or CCA. Let's talk about class first, alright?(:

Keep smacking Song Hong. And then Science pratical was like so freaking funny. I burnt the science table when doing the Magnesium ribbon thingy. Haha. Then the whole table is like.. Tsk, don't laugh. It was just me being careless okay? Because i didn't drop the God damn thing again. Oh yeah, i forgot not to look directly at it and was 'blinded' by it for a moment. Ooops! LOL. I was veryveryveryveryvery lucky that i didn't had my mass reading in the hall because i heard that Mr Kong was in a very bad mood. Wooooh.

CCA was sort of.. I don't know? I only remember vividly that NCO JianXiong said something about my hair but Sir had passed my hair already :D Yeah, then went to Mac with squadmates. Kevin super funny lo. He and that Edwin kept gaying around. Tsktsktsk, public leh, little boys. Don't disgrace our squad worh! LOL.

Went home and called the stupid Kukubird a few times but he never pick up. Too bad lo. Slapped him, but not on the face. He go cover! He really very kukubird lah, so i normally just don't care him (: Stupid, stupid kukubird.

joceleen: Haha. Thank you, thank you!
SAM!: LOL thanks :D

2009-02-16T16:36:00.002+08:00

如何让你遇见我
在我最美丽的时刻
为着
我已在佛前求了五百年
求佛让我们结一段尘缘
佛于是把我化做一棵树
长在你必经的路旁

阳光下
慎重的开满了花
朵朵都是我前世的盼望

当你走进
请你细听
那颤抖的叶
是我等待的热情

而当你终于无视的走过
在你生后落了一地的
朋友阿
那不是花瓣
那时我凋零的心

2009-02-14T23:30:00.002+08:00

Happy Valentine's Day!

Went LANing today. My knee was hurting like nobody's business okay? Zzzzcvsgfdz. ~~WTHF~~. Anyway, i care a lot lo.

It's just normal life. Nothing much to update. I'm still well; very much alive, yes. I'm still with short hair? LOL. MY HAIR CAN BE TIED ALREADY! Surprised, huh? No, it doesn't look weird. It just look like me tying up my hair. Haha. Lame. I know. That's what i'm feeling for the whole of today. When i think that Jonathan split water at me, i'm very much distracted. Ohmycrap. Why am i talking about this now? Sure, i'm lame. That's what i'm feeling for the whole of thday. Can i stop repeating myself? Yes, i know, i'm lame. That's what i'm feeling right now. Go on any further and i'll stop my post in fustration. Gosh, I KNOW I'M LAME. That's it. My limit. End of post.

tricia & SAM!: Thanks :D
fangying: same to you too!
Prussone[+1]: Who you?

2009-02-10T17:02:00.003+08:00

It's me again! LOL.

Got my new phone yesterday when the man came and deliver it to my doorstep. I'm so touched by his actions, which is obviously fake. Don't know lah, M1 says they'll deliver it to my doorsteps, so they can't break their promises. Too bad! Ohyah, and my phone is reallyreallyreally quite style worh! Haha. Up till now, i'm still not sure whether did i made to right choice or not. But, all i can say is, what is done can't be undone; even if i regret, there's nothing much i can do.

Super suay today. Don't know what i did to have this rotten luck. Mr Matthew punished me for not doing his work by making me stand for 1.30 hour. Hello?! Is this a muster parade or what? Then asked us to go out for a 'talk' after lessons. Ohmycrap. Well, it's all crap actually. And when i'm standing, Songhong the ~~mother fucking dog~~ keep guailan me. Kaopei lah. So what? I've got back my revenge already. *Evil grin*

There's a surprise test today for History. Teacher says if we don't do the test today, she'll set an even more tough paper for us next time. She kept emphasizing that the paper is easy, but when i get the paper, it's bullshit. I don't know the answer for all the structered questions! At least the Source Based are much easier, thanks Lord.

Science? Nothing much happened there. 2 period Science, but i'd lost my worksheet, so i diamdiam down there draw for 2 periods, then Kevin and Deshun laugh at me. Wthf. )))):

I had to cross my fingers to say somethings to Songhong before that bastard lets me copy his work. ~~Nahbei cheebye~~, I still think i did the right thing because i crossed my fingers :D LOL. As for that bastard, i swear he's going to get it from me tml. Wuji come back you seat seat lah!-'-

No much thing happened during music, except Baey kept singing and his singing is damn, i mean DAMN terrible and i thought the glass was going to break anytime. Then after a while he finally shut up. Kicked his 'trousers' (actually it's pants, but he act cute and called it trousers) and he wanted to kick my skirt, but kicked my hand instead by mistake. Haha!

Went Mac after school with Wenling and i was like a business woman with a lot of SMSes and calls coming it. LOL. Can't even eat lunch in peace, you see. ): After eating, went home and did the homework which i owed Matthew.

Bloody day. Actually, i feel that i didn't even learn in school. Lessons are so boring, the Sun's so lazy.. All these things either make my have a headache or sleepy.

2009-02-08T21:02:00.002+08:00

Today is the last day i'm using my phone- Samsung U700. It's so saddening can? No matter how you say, the phone and i still had a relationship before what. Got feelings one leh. If i want to change a new phone, i've to trade in my U700. The phone i'm going to take- LG Secret. God, i've never use a LG phone before okay? I scared i'll not be able to get use to it and regret my choice. Well, actually i can chose another phone- Sony dk what brand lah. All i know is it is a Walkman phone and the camera is 5 mega pixels, same as Secret. Both design also zai, but the problem is which one to chose? Darn it lah, i've already chosen Secret. There's no more time for mistakes. The man is going to deliver the phone over tomorrow. Gosh.

I'll never forget this phone. Although it spoils quite often, but it's still once my phone. That phone is my first expensive phone. $100+, i remember. $168, i think, or $198. I'll never, never forget you (:

Tomorrow is not going to be such a great day without it either. Don't think i'll get enthu with you, Enthu D:

But what can i do? If i don't trade in my U700, my mother still won't get it fixed, and i won't be able to use any mobile phone for the next half year lah. Although a lot of people advised me to chose Sony instead of Secret, i still made my own decision. Does it shows that i've grown up? WOW! LOL.

24.11.07-09.02.09
RIP
Jermaine's beloved Samsung U700.
Will be missed and blessed up in heaven.

puayyun: ENTHU!(:
Maytaurus: Piang eh.
fangying: Thank you for your support! LOL.

2009-02-08T10:24:00.001+08:00

Disgusting.

Maytaurus: Oh please.
joceleen & SAM!: Thanks :D
♥ Dawn: That's what i hate about the movies. Same thing appilies for 'Don't Mess with the Zohans' ._.

2009-01-31T15:08:00.002+08:00

Haha.
No computer to post recently.
O.o
Okok.

Nothing much happened recently.
Chinese New Year is the most exciting one lah.
LOL.
Angpaos.
(:
Computer spoil, cannot blame.
Got a lot of photos can't post.
*yawns*
Audition also cannot play.
Need go LAN lah.
But, no time.
My timetable is so packed lo.
SIAN.
If i tell you i did my homework, will you believe me?
If i tell you i've changed, will you believe me?
LOL.

Lalalaaaaaa.
Anw, Happy Birthay Shuwen (:
So many people birthday laaaaaaaaah.
I don't have money liao lah.

Faye: LOL. Yeah :D
Maytaurus: ._______.
fangying: Oh shit. I'll change it asap (:
ziru(:: Happy Chinese New Year to you too. Anw, you typo lah. LOL. Happy chinese year._.
♥ Dawn: HAHA. Bad day:x

You had changed.

2009-01-21T20:23:00.007+08:00

Got back my DARLING HANDPHONE! :D
Hms, after 2 weeks of not having it with me, i almost died lo.
LOL.
Yes, it is a serious matter.
No handphone equals to no life.
Please lah.
Try it youself.

My computer is a bit.. *ahem* crazy.
Hopes it doesn't fail me always.
Right.

Let's talk about my crazy feast of seaweed.
Ate a total of 48 packets of seaweed yesterday and today.
Wa :D
This shows that my mother shouldn't buy too much seaweed.
LOL.
No lah, buy for me to eat what.
Tsk, this kinda things you all won't understand derh :x
Learnt some 孔子's saying in chinese class, but forgot all of them soon after.
Chinese is boring okay?
As in, Higher Chinese is boring.
The chinese is like damn 'chim', can make me burst a blood vessel lo.
SIAN.

Ohyah.
Yesterday Enthu, Enid, Ziru and me went to Lot 1's PizzaHut to celebrate Yuelin's birthday.
LOL.
SOMEONE WAS SO TOUCHED BY THE SURPRISE THAT SHE CRIED!
Because i came out with the idea of asking the waitress to surprise Yuelin with the cake.
Then the waitress came up with 2 or 3 other staffs singing 'Happy Birthday'.
Ohmygosh.
Yuelin was so touched that she cried.
That was like totally unexpected, okay?
Then later she said that she had guess we wanted to celebrate her birthday with her, but not in this way.
HAHA.
Maybe it was because she didn't expect we would come up with this surprise, so she cried.
Tsk.
Then i accidentally spilled curry on my shirt!
A big patch lo.
Si bei xia suey-'-
All the baked rice's fault lah!

Went to Yuelin's house.
Oh my.
Her house i super big okay?
5 storeys!
Just the climbing can make you exhausted.
So i suggest her to put in a lift.
Because i fell down because of the climbing.
Don't say i'm a noob or whatever shit.

Talked about some..
Erm, girl stuff with Enid and Enthu while waiting for the bus.
Yah, it was really a good talk.
We hadn't had this kind of this talk before.

Reached home and ate dinner alone as there were nobody else.
I was thinking about a lot of things.
About the talk.
About everything.
I just can't take everything.
Everything just seem so wrong.
I didn't want to say it out loud because i didn't want us to go on our sepearte ways.
What you think?
I don't know.
Even if i say out, you'll just boh chap me and continue with things that you think is right.
Can't my Secondary 2 life be a smooth one?
You don't need to tell me you don't know.
Before i do anything, i'll think whether who will be affected and how.
But as for you, no.
You just do as you deem fit.
I just don't want us to be bueygam.
But at the same time, i want you to change a bit.
If you tell me that's you, well i've nothing to say.
All i can say is i'm very disppointed in you.
Where had the person i knew gone to?
The you i knew was someone who's considerate and thinks before acting.
What about now?
Everything just changed.
My life wasn't the life it used to be with you in.
We had became like strangers.
We had become more to classmate-to-classmate relationship.
I'm really confused.

Faye: It's normal (:
joceleen: Hello!
Maytaurus: -.-

2009-01-21T20:23:00.003+08:00

Just a question i don't understand: Why does he likes attention so damn much?

Didn't really study much today.
Got super enthu and kept slapping Emerson.
Maybe it's the effect of sweets?

Ms Noora didn't come for Literature lessons.
Played around with girlfriends.
Threw paper from corner to corner when teacher wasn't watching and crapped so much with girlfriends until Ling cried.
Oh well, not really cried.
She's too happy, that's why she cried.
Awwwwwws!:D
Watched Romeo&Juliet.
Tsk, if there were someone asflirty as Romeo, nobody will want him manszvfzdcxv!

Science teacher was pissed off with the whole class as we came in 15 mins late.
Walau eh.
15 mins niah she angry till like that.
And in the end, we were released 15mins late.
Minus off the time i need to change to my PT kit, i didn't have time to eat.
But Enthu, Santa and I just heck care and went down to eat.
Bell ring already we still down there happily strolling :D
Anw, by the time we reached the classroom, Mr Matthew wasn't even there yet.
So, what's the hurry?
Tsk.

CCA was quite fun.
I mean, for the games lah.
Campcraft was tiring.
Haha, kept tio pump.
Ohmycrap.
When i heard there were games, i was like overjoyed?
The games.
Hms, actually quite standard lah.
Everytime Captain's Ball.
Maybe they should try something new?
No lah, just joking!
Asked a lot of Sec 1s for their names.
Large squad worh!
But i sumpa this wouldn't last long.
Our squad at the beginning also big derh.
But now?
15 members.
Pathetic huh?
I know.

Went Bobohut.
Queue veryveryveryvery long lah.
Had to wait damn long for my cheese fries.
By the time i reached home, it was already 7.05pm.

Wish me good luck in my common test tommorrow?
Haha.
I just want my handphone back, don't care if i get A or not.

2009-01-19T17:24:00.002+08:00

Oh my, oh my.
Saddist.
Gosh.
I'll have a sleepless night again, after looking at that thing.

Woohoo!
Common test is tommorrow!
Wish my good luck, okay?
Hope i'll get an A and get back at the teacher :D
I will, i must and i can!

我把自己关起来只留下一个阳台
每当天黑推开窗我对着夜幕发呆
看着往事一幕一幕
再次演出你我的爱
我把电视机打开听着别人的对白
也许那些故事可以给我一个交代
你要的爱我学不来
眼睁睁看情变坏人怔怔看情感概
不能给你未来我还你现在
安静结束也是另一种对待
当眼泪流下来伤已超载
分开也是另一种明白
我给你最后的疼爱是手放开
不要一张双人床中间隔着一片海
感情的污点就留给时间慢慢漂白
把爱收进胸前左边口袋
最后的疼爱是手放开
不想用言语拉扯所以选择不责怪
感情就像候车月台有人走有人来
我的心是一个站牌写着等待
最后的疼爱是手放开
我把收音机打开听着别人的失败
啃咽的声音仿佛诉说着相同悲哀
你的依赖还在胸怀
我无法轻易推开我无法随便走开
感情中专心的人容易被伤害

2009-01-16T19:26:00.003+08:00

Oh god.
This seriously sucked.
Next Tuesday then can get back my Laogong leh (My phone lahhhhhh!)

Was late this morning.
Fucking, fucking suay.
Mr Kong happened to punished those late comers this morning, so Minru & I can't escape his powerful claws.
Or should it be 'claws'?
"CLAWS"?
Oh, whatever.
Gave us a lecture and all shit.
Oh my crap can or not?
-.-

Recess kept playing something with girlfriends.
LOL.
Only Enthu and Santa lah.
SOMETHING (:

Super LOL siah, on lessons.
I keep disiao-ing Emerson, then the Geography teacher ask us to concentrate when Emerson did not even say a word but i kept laughing.
:x
Ooooooooooooooops!

I didn't know the answers to the History spot quiz today.
Just randomly write one lah.
I didn't bring back my book to read, that's why.
I don't even know what's going on manaszxcdszgd.
LOL.
Like why Raffles Singapore as a settlement and why a third settlement needed for the Britsh.
Why Singapore's leader claimed Singapore to be under the Dutches(Holland).
O.o
Confused.
Gosh, what if i fail?
*Closes eyes*
Nevermind, as long as i do well in my Science common test, i'll be a happy kid :D

New batch of Sec 1s came in.
Tsk, i don't know how to say them lah.
Although quite enthu, but not that kinda Sec 1s i was expecting lah.
Especially got one guy, i see liao sibei buey song okay?
But, what position i have to critisise people.
I can understand lah, that kinda tired feeling.
Now there'll be 25 people in Sec1 squad, but i sumpa will decrease derh.

Went Mac with some squadmates.
Discussed some horny stuff?
Oh please.
Science stuff (:
Damn funny lah.
LOL.

SAM!: (:
Faye: Thanks, junior!:D

If Romeo and Juliet were still alive now, what will be their ending?

2009-01-13T14:59:00.003+08:00

Fuck lah.
Don't want give back say don't want lah.
I know it's nice (duh, tha's why it's mine:x), but can you stop keeping it?
You said if my parents came, you'll give me back.
Now, you say you'll give me back if i scored an A for the common test next week.
Cheebye, pengwei siboh?
You gave me you word and yet now you tell me another thing.
I'm hopping mad now okay?
2 weeks!
You're crazy man.
You try surviving without it for 2 weeks lah!
&, Bio is like so damn hard, yet you want me get an A.
Memorize like %*&)#*)@$)& lah.
I see the diagram already buey tahan liao lo.
You did it on purpose, didn't you?
I did all my homework today, hoping that you'll give me back.
But what i get?
Empty promises!
I don't need you empty promises lah hor.
You can jolly well keep them for yourself.
You were the first teacher who punished me this year, and i'm so not going to forget you.
You were the first one who took things from me by force, and i'm so not going to forget you.
You just deserve a big fat slap on your suckish face.

Revised my MOI and found out i've forgot everything!
I only remembered the first part, though.
Gosh, gosh, gosh.
My memory is failing me ):

Messages will be replied asap when i..
(:
You all should know.

I don't need lies to keep me going.
I don't need your sympathy to keep me going.
Stop acting as if you care, but actually you don't.
Well, i hate hypocrites.
And this is the crap you had been giving me.

♥ Dawn: I just feel that way. LOL.
fangying: I also no choice but to cut short my hair derh.
geokkoon:): Haha. Yeah. Please lah. I sumpa if she become lian (arhem), everyday will tio people slap derh lo. :x

2009-01-11T15:41:00.001+08:00

I going to try to complete all my homework in time.
Go on, laugh at me!
I don't believe i can't do it.

2009-01-08T15:59:00.003+08:00

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG.
SUAY.
Handphone confiscated.
So don't message me.
Will inform again when it is taken back.
):

Faye: LOL. Relax, relax (:
♥ Dawn: Is that sacarstic?
geokkoon:): Yeah. She's like.. OMG man :x if i were to list all the flaws of her, i'll lose my sleep for don't know how many days. LOL.
QIANYI: Oh, shutup. DON'T SAY MY HAIR LIAO LAH-.-

2009-01-05T16:08:00.002+08:00

*yawnnnnnnnnnnnns*
i'm supersuperduper bored & stressed up!
Stressed because teachers keep kp my hair.
Cheebye siol-'-
Don't talk about that liao lah.
Catch then catch lo.
Boh bian.
Dye so many times my hair fucking dry liao siah..

I HATE SCHOOLING LAH.
STRESSEDSTRESSEDSTRESSEDSTRESSEDSTRESSED.
Andandand i'm soooooooooooooooooooooooo bored!

I've no longer have trust in you.
No matter what you say, i don't even know which one is the truth and which one is a lie.
Don't say anything else.
I'm just confused.

WENLING(:: LOL. You've know the reason liao.
SAM!: -.-
MINRU: LOL. Okayokay, i'll ask you asap :D
Jason.L: Discipline mater. You which jason?
ta: Yeah, nose piercing.

2009-01-04T14:39:00.003+08:00

ohmyohmyohmyohmyohmyohmyohmy..
OH-MY-GODZXXSCDZD!
I cut my hairrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
PIANG EHS.
Look like..
(See above picture)
I bought hairdyes to dye my hair back to darkbrown.
But in the end..
IT'S BROWN!
OHNO.
Noornoornoor is going to kill me again :(

Mwahahahahaha.
Finally learnt more about that girl.
-'-
Okay nehmind.
MY HAIR MY HAIR MY HAIR MY HAIR MY HAIR
It's gone for good..
Can it be grown back?
It is..
SHORT.
One word.
SIANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.
I'm going to wear a plastic bag on my head on Monday.
HAISH.

&&&, please lah.
Disgusting siah.
Copy, copy, copy.
Is this what you only know what to do?
Cheebye kia.
Eeeeeeeeeeee.
PLEASE.
No creativity lo.
Can you get a life please?
You don't have the looks, don't the brains and you want to act as if you have.
Makes you look more stupid, huh?
Stick to people like despo gao when you don't any friends and dump them when you found someone better.
People don't need you to live on hor, fucker.
Although i don't know a lot of people, but you didn't leave a good immpression on the people i know.
Zzzzzxxcdfxzvs.
-'-
Fuckerrrrrrrrrr.
Cheapskatee.

♥ Dawn: Yah lo. Suckish.
Jacelyn-♥: Obviously.. &&&, need me call you?:D
geokkoon:): Yah i know who are you. Well, so far no one i know likes her. Pathetic huh?
SAM!: (:

My first day of school

2009-01-02T17:27:00.003+08:00

Cheebye-'-
You really think you lao DM is scared uh?
Step on my leg still kp me.
Eh hello!
Who's in the wrong here?
You really think you say sorry everything ok uh?
You're so fucking naive.
Even my parents and form teach also boh kp me so much, what makes you think you can?
Everytime only know how to listen to others, don't have a mindset of your own.
It's not like i never show respect for you hor, is you NEVER even show me that tiny weeny of respect.
I ill-mannered then what about you?
Double of my rudeness huh?

Fuck manszxcdsfzx.
Make my first day of school so unpleasent.
I no need you this kinda DM lah.
I prefer the last batch lah hor.
You want bark like dog go home lah.
Somemore hold up my hair.
Ma de.
You very duah is it?
That's my hair leh, bitch.
I know you jealous, but what rights have you got to ask me dye back?
You sponsor me lah.
Okay?
Since you so rich.
I this kind of poor people boh money derh lah.

And that bastard.
Fuck shit lo.
First day of school niah, so many people make me buey song.
But that bastard is like everybody hate him okay?
Act cool niah.
Beng?
*pukes*
STEP LAH.
Can he don't do all these disgusting stuff in front of me?
I look at him niah my recess boh appetite liao lah.
Siahlah, like act cool go home lah hor.
Tsktsktsk.

Anw, my form teach is Ms Maz siah.
Haish.
She wants all girls with fringe to pin them up, including the side fringe.
MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!
She must as well kill me.
Aiyo, Ms Maz is muchmuchmuch more better then people who is mentioned on top.
Go first day niah, i don't feel like going to school liao.
My sitting place is like soooooooooooooo far from my girlfriends;
the DM sucked;
the bastard is irritating me;
the class is not as noisy as it used to be any longer.
Everything is just not the same.
SIAN LAH.
I want back my old 1/4'08 :(
Siansiansiansiansiansian!
*yawns*

Just learnt new baton drills today.
Okay lah, it's quite fun, but somewhat hard.
Got one command i just don't seem to get the hang of it.
But basically, i think i'm doing a bit poorer then average.
What to do?
Who asked me to pon so much?
MOI i also didn't really go memorize.
What i really did was to learn the new commands' procedures by heart, parts of baton and how to grip the baton.
Wa piang.
Drop baton still must down 50.
Drop me no need down.:x
Joking!

I'm tired lerh D:
Think i'm going to take a nap and eat my dinner.
(:

2009-01-01T12:29:00.002+08:00

Yoohooooooooooo:D
Happy New Year leh!
So much had happened this year.
So much that i have a feeling that 2009 is not going to be a smooth one for me.
SIANED.
How the fuck can i get an A for my maths?
Please lah!
Eh, don't laugh at me hor.
-'-
Maths is always a difficult subject for me, somemore i'm aiming for A maths next year.
I don't want to end up in Poly and not able to take the courses i want.
JC is like.. impossible?
I also don't know why the hell did i even bother to take up higher mother tongue in the first place can or not?
If i enter Poly, no matter i got Higher Mother Tongue or not the teacher don't even give a freaking damn.
SO HOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW?
It's not like i want to take up Higher Mother Tongue in the first place, it's my mother who insisted i'm MUST take higher mother tongue.
Actually, it doesn't really make a difference lo.
Only make me look more stupid for getting a C5/6 instead of a B4 and above.
And makes me look more stupid by failing all my common tests and throwing them away before even showing them to my mother.
It's NOT my fault lah hor.

My New Year resolution got alot.

Make it a point to join cell group once per two weeks (:

Control my temper(!)

Get 3 As for SA2.

Get A maths.

Get my desire combination (Bio&Chem)

Try to get F&N too :D

Earn $200 by December '09.

Weight loss of 5 kg (:

Re-extensions.

Others i don't quite give a damn lah.
These are the basics.
I don't want to take Pure lo.
Super s-t-r-e-s-s-e-d can or not?
Tsktsktsk.

Tml school's reopening.
Oh no!
HOWWWWWWWWWWWWW?
NEHMIND.
JEROCK:D
LOL.

Faye: Ok, thanks junior.
Jacelyn-♥: Toot looooo-.-
SAM!: LOL.
Maytaurus: -.-

2008-12-28T17:22:00.002+08:00

Omgomgomgomg!
I've changed my specs.
Kinda don't suit me?
Makes my eyes looks even more smaller.
Eeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Downstairs freaking noisy can?
Got don't know what thingy lah, then very noisy correct lah.
Can't even nap in peace.
Later i get panda eyes i'll chase them with a chopper.
Oh, i'm lame.

I still hate that cheebye can or not?
No matter how you say, she's still my friend ok?
Andandand, my pimple!
Gosh, there's a big one on my face!
It has been here for 2days?
OMG LAH!
Oh-My-God!
How can i make it disppear?
I feel like taking a knife and chopping it down.
JOKE!
LOL.

2008-12-27T12:25:00.002+08:00

Yoohoo:D
Quite long never post leh.
LOL.
I'm quite pissed off with something lah-.-
Whatever.
Bought my Sec2 books anyway.
Sianed.
Home Econs out of OOS.
School reopen still need buy PE Tshirt and take that fucking book.
WALAU.
Andandand, my report book is still not signed leh :x
My parents don't like my results then they don't sign.
-'-
My cousin get last his parents also got sign right?
Tong ren bu tong ming.
Sua lerh.

Spent most of my time on Christmas in City Harvest's at Expo.
Have not went there for a longlonglonglong time liao.
I kept going to Jurong West's service.
Ok, back to Christmas service.
The play was super, i mean SUPER, hilarious and interesting.
LOL.
It's a mixture of Chinese, English and Hokkien.
HAHA.
Christmas service is really veryvery fun.
I'm sure i'll go for it every year.
And, jer is officially a Christian!
Cool right?
I know :D
I'm invitated to the Appreciation, but i'm not free on that day.
Sad.
I'm sure it'll be damn fun.
I want to see Shaoliang's car and driving skills!
Missed it last week lah!

This should be passed on not passed back.
Pass this survey to 8 girls you know.
You cannot say ‘’anyone is able to do this survey’’ or similar like that.
Those who were chosen to do this survey, you must play along and not back out.
If you received this survey more than 8 times means you are someone on the outgoing popular links.
REMEMBER: NO HIT BACK!

0. Who passed this survey to you? What is you relationship with her? how do you befriend with her? And how do you find her?
-Jacelyn.
-Primary school friend lah. She's, alot of things to describe, so don't think i'll write it here?

1. What is your real name?
-JERMAINE TAN JIA MINNNNNNNNNNNN (:

2. Which one do you prefer to be call?
-Jer & Jermaine

3. Are you currently wearing something green?
-No. Green = Uniform. Ewwww.

4. Do you eat raw salmon?
-Yah.

5. Are you married yet? If no, when do you intend to get hitched?
-WALAU. No i'm not. I prefer not to get married. Marriage is the tomb of love.

6. Are you attached or no? if yes, what’s his name and how do you met?
-Can i change this question?

7. If you are attached, would you mind if your boy got kissed by someone?
-Depends lo.

8. Do you love answering back?
-To who?

9. What is your favorite color? Name three.
-WHITE, SILVER & RED:D

10. Why do you like the second color of your earlier answer?
-How i know?

11. Do you think you are someone known to public?
-Nope. I've not hit the headlines yet.

12. Have you had sex with anyone before?
-NO.-.-

13. Do you like being hated?
-Who likes that?

14. Do you think this survey is stupid?
-YAH, DUH.

15. What is your favorite lingerie shop? Name two.
--'-

16. Do you prefer to wear G-string or normal undies?
-Cheebye leh this quiz-.-

17. What is your favorite watch brand?
-I don't wear one.

18. Have you own all the above mentioned watches yet?
-Did i mention one?

19. What is you current addiction favorite song?
-Will.I.Am feat Cheryl Cole- Heartbreaker

20. Name your favorite blog website besides that your site? (list down their names)
-Jacelyn, Wenling, Qianyi.

21. Do you think by blogging can make you famous?
-UNo. Because i blog crap.

22. Do you support Rima Melati Adams or Ida Nerina? Please choose one only.
-Who are those people?

23. Do you think Taufik Batisah or Hady Mirza has the nicest voice? Choose only one.
-I only know Taufik leh:x

24. Are you planning to adopt a child like Angelina Jolie does?
-YOU MUST BE CRAZY.

25. Do you think you are pretty/handsome?
-Why should i answer?

26. Do you rate yourself as caring or understanding?
-i don't know?

27. What is your occupation now?
-Student.

28. Where do you usually shop for your clothes?
-Bugis Street.

29. Do you prefer dresses or t-shirts and shorts? Choose only one.
-t-shirts and shorts.

30. If you were given a miracle to change something in yourself, what would it be? List down five.
-To have a lot of money:x
-To stop being so kaypoh.
-To stop diao-ing teachers.
-To be more hardworking.
-To have a better temper.

If you wish to know what’s your friend secret pass this on to at least 8 girls. Let them know if they are chosen for this survey.

-Wenling
-Ziru
-Tricia
-Dawn
-Faye Junior
-Minru
Can't think of anyone already..

JIAMIN: Relinked:D
Jacelyn-♥: LOL nehmind. And your quiz is done (:
MINRU: HAHA.
fangying & AliciaTan♥: You too ;D
SAM!: (:

Cheebye, all my fault.

2008-12-23T11:38:00.005+08:00

Sosososososososososo?
So what if i'm the eldest?
So what if?
Everything my fault lah like that.
Cheebye.
Fight with my bro, my fault.
Quarrel with my bro, my fault.
Fuck lah like that.
I just want go out with girlfriends, then my bro keep sticking along.
He's like so fucking extra can or not?
All girlgirl, he go for?
-'-
Then like that i don't even want be the eldest lah hor.
No freedom, having a stupid younger bro sticking with me everywhere.
What's this life?
I rather die okay?
.___________________.

I want my outing with my girlfriends only!(:
Jacelynnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn!
When can we go gaigaaaaaaaaaaaai?
Aiyo, the outing keep dragginggggggggggggggg leh!
Hahas.

Going Church on the 25th to celebrate Christmas, then go to Aunt's house.
This time, i must remember to bring my HANDPHONE.:D
LOL.
Really.
And i've got the wrong time.
I'm supposed to collect my spectacles on SATURDAY, not FRIDAY.
LOL.
I'm really blur siah :(
I was still planning where to go first on the 26th.
HAHA.
Because i'm going to buy my textbooks plus uniforms and do drills on that day.
Going to 'teach' someone drills.
*yawns*
Must wake up supersupersupersuper early leh.
7am must reach or 8am?
Siannnnzxcsdzfcszv.
I go school sometimes also boh so early can or not?
o.o

By the end of Secondary 2, i want A-Maths and Combined Science of Bio&Chem.
Well, that's my goal?
HAHA.
Sort of lah (:
I also want F&N, but that's really optional derh.
D&T suck, don't even know why my stupid cousin want take that subject.
I want history too, because it's my best subject:D
The subject i took a A2.
The only A2.
LOL (:
At least i still got an A, okay?
I hope i won't get Physics, because Physics sucksucksucksucksuck!
My cousin (the girl derh, of course) tio force to take Pure Physics.
PURE LEH!
She's damn pro ok?
But Physics..
If like that, i rather chose Combined can or not?
Siannnnszxddsffzxv.
If i'm not wrong, Meiyue and Aaron also take Pure Physics.
They love talking about Physics stuff.
And i don't know what the hell were they talking about.
Tsktsktsk.

LOL.
Si kuku keep saying i no life, keep playing Audition.
Okay lah, a bit lah.
Whatever.
I'm going down to buy lunch lerh.
(:

-- ♥ --

And i've opened my blog in thanks to Qianyi, that si bodoh.
Because she can't enter my blog, and invite like so many times liao, still cannot.
SIANNNSZXCDVVX.
Suckers, refrain from making nonsensical comments.
I don't need them.
Pray hard that you won't drop in the drain while walking.

jonathan: YOU SUCK LAH HOR-.-
MINRU: Well, i'm supersupersuper glad you like it, because if you don't like it, you will also need to like it. LOL.
♥ Dawn: Canglelight service damn nice!
Maytaurus: -.-
QIANYI: Glad you know that.
Kaimin ♥: LOL. (:

2008-12-21T15:38:00.003+08:00

Went to CHC's Candlelight service yesterday.
It was super beautiful lah, when everybody lighted up their candles(:
It was such a pity that i didn't bring my handphone along.
I FORGOT, OKAY? o.o
Before that, everyone went to Coffee Bean's for coffee, chatting and gaming.
But in the end, we were chased out by the auntie. :(

Went BPP to do my specs:D
Woohoo!
I'll be collecting it next Friday, and i'll be prepared to go school lerh.
HAHA.
My friends will be playing with my hair again.
LOL.
I really, really, really miss them okay?
All not free derh.
I MISS ALL OF THEM:(
Miss Ling's liatening ears;
miss Enthu's crap and enthu-ness;
miss Yuelin's laughter;
miss Ziru's gossip with SongHong:x
Apparently, i miss everyone in the group.
I miss my class tooD:
How we talk back to teachers, how we helped each other, and the jokes too.
My si sister who is always playing his imaginary drum, Syazwan and Nora who is always willing to pon lessons with me.
How i hope 2009 will come soon.
In fact, it is coming soon.
LOL.

Just as i had expected, she'd remove me from the readers thingy.
Whatever.
Her blog doesn't deserve people like me to read it.
LOL.
Ok, it's all bitchy and fucky stuff.
What you expect with cheebye kias?
Expect them to talk oh-so-nicely to you?
Please!
You must be daydreaming!
I'm telling you that cheebye kia will not just end her bitchy ways.
She thinks she duah?
Oh my God!
She puah cheebye SO WHAT?
Not my bloody problem lah hor.
She's just starting the childish 'You don't invite me, i don't invite you'.
Ma de.
She how old liao?
Behaving like a immature brat.
Even more irritating than my brother, who is obviously pissing me off whenever he gets the chance.
I hate you okay?
I'm not scared, so i'll just write you name BIGBIG.
ONG XIAOHUI, I HATE YOU TO THE FREAKING CORE MANSZXSSXD!
ONG XIAOHUI, I HATE YOU TO THE FREAKING CORE MANSZXSSXD!
ONG XIAOHUI, I HATE YOU TO THE FREAKING CORE MANSZXSSXD!
ONG XIAOHUI, I HATE YOU TO THE FREAKING CORE MANSZXSSXD!
ONG XIAOHUI, I HATE YOU TO THE FREAKING CORE MANSZXSSXD!
ONG XIAOHUI, I HATE YOU TO THE FREAKING CORE MANSZXSSXD!
ONG XIAOHUI, I HATE YOU TO THE FREAKING CORE MANSZXSSXD!
ONG XIAOHUI, I HATE YOU TO THE FREAKING CORE MANSZXSSXD!
ONG XIAOHUI, I HATE YOU TO THE FREAKING CORE MANSZXSSXD!
ONG XIAOHUI, I HATE YOU TO THE FREAKING CORE MANSZXSSXD!
All you know is to scold 'pubor bitch' when people de jiu you.
Go home gamlan okay?

Maytaurus: Oh.
MINRU: Yah. That's why i pon.
JIAMIN & JACELYN: Something on her blog piss me off my pants, that's why.
jonathan: You shutup, stupid laodi.

2008-12-17T16:29:00.004+08:00

HAHA.
Today..
Something very LOL happen to me when i was buying takeaways.
Si Kukuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu!
Something similar to his thingy lah.
The ______________ thingy.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
OMG.
Then my Di keep teasing me.
What the fuckkkkkkkkkkkkk!
-'-
Got a bit of phobia of buying things liao.
*shakes head*
LOL!
The uncle is like fucking shittttttttt!
@.@
HAHAHA.
Only my Di and i know what happen.
Maybe going tell Kuku?
*shrugs*
HE'LL LAUGH AT ME DERH, THAT SUCKERRRRRR~
The best is he don't ever ever ever ever see this post :x
HAHAHAHAHAHAH.
Si kukuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu-.-

And i hate that fucking bitch can or not?
Go home gam lan lah ccb.
I don't need people who anyhow ren GANs okay?
Look at your lanjiaobin.
It's no wonder why people hate you so freaking much.
Everytime when you are in the wrong, you will find faults in others and push the blame to them.
We gao you what?
My mother gave me a name i'm not proud of SO WHAT?
Buey song uh?
Too bad, because there's nothing much you can do.
Jerel that sucker say one line you believe, i say 100 lines you don't believe, then you tell me you boh feelings for him liao.
Eh cheebye, can don't pengwei on you your words or not?
And you want ask whole TWL come uh?
Ask lah!
Like i scared of you.
OHNO!
SHE'S COMING!
OMG I'M SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SCARED!
MUMMY, DADDY, JIU MING UH!
Did you expect me to say this?
What's the blooody problem with you?
I just expect an APOLOGY from you.
Can't you just do it?
Why you must make things worst for everbody everytime you tio daiji?
Yah, you know how say people gao.
Then you leh?
You also people's gao what.
When you despo for friends, you'll stick to them like superglue lo.
Following them everywhere.
Let me ask you, you really think GG's gonna stick with you?
NO WAY.
Let me just remind you, if you continue your idiotic and sickening behaviour, you won't have anyone to pei you for your remaining 4 years in CCKSS, no need say zao gor.
Just reflect your attitude lah hor sucker.

Who can i trust?

2008-12-16T12:34:00.003+08:00

Life is like a show.
You just have to act according to your script, do what you have to do.
You just have to tolerate things which are happening around you.
Even if you don't want to, you have to.
It's your job.
Once the director says 'Cut!', that's it.

People masked their feelings, what can we say?
You may think the person very well, but think again.
Are those really his/her real feelings?

I'm not going to get myself into deep shit anymore.
I'll just act according to my script.

Maytaurus: Bye.
JACELYN ♥ & ♥ Dawn: Yeah.

2008-12-14T19:21:00.004+08:00

Yohyoh (:
Long time boh post.
I suppose 3 days is a long time?
HAHA.
Went to Westmall to pierce my nose and bought my Total Defence badge.
Wanted to buy my Lance Corporal rank.
But, out of stock.
AIYO.
The uncle say stock will arrive next week.
SAD, SAD, SAD ):
I'm going to change my nose stud to a transparent earstick and hope people won't notice (:

Christmas is coming soon (:
It's a time for giving, yeah?
So i'll do good deeds on that day! :D
LOL.
Jiayou jermaine!
You can do it derh!

JIAMIN: Yoohoo, jiamin :D
Maytaurus: LOL.
jonathan: What you mean?
K♥IMIN: You must be joking.
MINRU: Yeah..
JACELYN ♥: LOL. Mwacks<3

LANing:D

2008-12-11T15:21:00.004+08:00

Yohyoh :D
Now LANing with Minru.
Play Audition until fucking sian, then came out to blog.

If you say you had spared a thought for me, you must be bullshiting.
I don't need crap to entertain me, i just want the truth.
Can you just tell me once and for all your feelings?
I don't want things to end up as before lah hor.
I don't want history to repeat itself.
Just need you to understand that i won't let myself get hurt by a bastard like you anymore.
I hate you, don't care whether you hate me or not.

2008-12-10T12:45:00.002+08:00

Back to posting.
Just went back to my class blog to revive that stupid thing.
Tagboard got a lot of people tag, but post leh?
*shakes head*

Uploaded a new song in my playlist.
A really nice song and i like it very much (:

你的繪畫凌亂著.
在這個時刻.
我想起噴泉旁的白鴿.
甜蜜散亂了.
情緒莫名的拉扯.
我還愛你吶.
伴你斷斷續續唱著歌.
假裝沒事了.
時間過了走了.
愛情面臨選擇.
你冷了卻了我哭了.
一開始的不快樂.
你用卡片拭寫著.
有些愛只給到這真的痛了.
怎麽了.你累了.說好的.幸福吶
我懂了.不說了.愛淡了.夢淹了
開心與不開心.一一敘說著.你在不捨
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻.我都還記得
你不等了.說好的.幸福吶
我錯了.淚乾了.放手了.後悔了
只是回憶的音樂和還旋轉著.
要怎麼停呢
你的繪畫凌亂著.
在這個時刻.
我想起噴泉旁的白鴿.
甜蜜散亂了.
情緒莫名的拉扯.
我還愛你吶.
伴你斷斷續續唱著歌.
假裝沒事了.
時間過了走了.
愛情面臨選擇.
你冷了卻了我哭了.
一開始的不快樂.
你用卡片拭寫著.
有些愛只給到這真的痛了.
怎麽了.你累了.說好的.幸福吶
我懂了.不說了.愛淡了.夢淹了
開心與不開心.一一敘說著.你在不捨
那些愛過的感覺都太深刻.我都還記得
你不等了.說好的.幸福吶
我錯了.淚乾了.放手了後悔了
只是回憶的音樂和還旋轉著.
要怎麼停吶
怎麽了.
你累了.
說好的.
幸福吶.
我懂了.
不說了.
愛淡了.
夢淹了.
我都還記得.
你不等了.說好的.幸福吶
我錯了.淚乾了.放手了後悔了
只是回憶的音樂和還旋轉著.
要怎麼停吶

So what if i had loved you?

2008-12-09T10:35:00.003+08:00

Recently alot of things had happened.
LOL.
Kuku encouraged me to post it here :x
Haha really must thank him (:
He really made me laugh very hard even on the day when the thing happen.
Ling also.
Conference with Kuku then Kuku imitate her laughing.
When i think of that now, i'm still laughing XD
Thanks guys.
But who i need to thank most is Qianyi.
She really listened to my crap and all those stuff.
Haha (:

Didn't think i'll get over you so quick huh?
Didn't think i was so quick to let go of you eh?
Then you must be dreaming.
Whatever you are doing now is NONE OF MY FUCKING BUSINESS ANYMORE.
Don't think so highly of yourself, dude.
I'll get a new stead and let you see that you are nothing.
Don't make yourself sound like i can't live without you.
But the truth is, i've already given up on you.
I don't believe i won't find someone much more better then you lah hor.
Since you and i had chosen this path, then let's not dwell on the past already.
I don't need you anymore.
Go ahead and fuck off.
I don't need you pity and don't want your pity.
What are you to me anyway?
If you think you can comfort me more, think again.
You'll be a super big bodoh if you think that way.
Brainless freak.
I can live well by my own, don't worry.
There's nothing much i can do.
Just as what Bangala Woman said, 顺其自然.
She's right.
Since everything is in Fate's hands, why must we try to change His decision?
We'll be nothing more than a noobass.

I'll live well without you.
Shut the hell up.

2008-12-06T19:13:00.003+08:00

Haish.
My leg's giving me trouble now and then.
Sianed.
Still can't find my badge.
-'-
Bloody shit.

Messed with my Brother's acash and ended up losing 4980 of them.
):
These money was suppose to be given to me derh.
But..
Haish.
I feel like killing Asiasoft.
Even Kuku say they eat money derh.
*yawns*

Btw, i'm going to private my blog most probably by tml.
And change it's URL(:
If you want the invitation, just pm me, yeah?
Don't say i not good hor, give you all advance notice liao.
:x
And the reason for it is complicated.
I'm so not going to tell all of you.
LOL.
I'm not joking here(:

This post is going to be a short post.
I've nothing much to say already.

jonathan: You shutup lah stupid xiaodidi! Btw, i don't feel like going too..
Maytaurus: Date what shit?
Kuku:D: Lao kuku. You want know? Call me. And i don't have lan qiu.
K♥IMIN: Hellos:D I miss you alot leh:(
QIANYI: You don't have uh? Awwwww, so sad!
JACELYN ♥: Hellos(:
joceleen: I go your house. Joking!

2008-12-05T12:09:00.002+08:00

Haha.
Had so much fun.. TODAY?
o.o
Went Mac with Kuku at 1:13am.
LOL.
I still remember the time hor, stupid kuku!
See, i rock!
Actually wanted to eat there derh, but since father kaopei already, so bought takeaways.):
Didn't really talk to Kuku after eating because i want him grow taller:x
He say if at night boh sleep cannot grow derh, that's why.
LOL.

Thanks Kuku:D
Haha.
Really, i need to thank you this time round, 'cause i've really cheered up a lot.
Though i sort of scream last night(because it was scary!), it was really fun.
LOL.
I mean it, Kuku.
I wouldn't know what to do if you wasn't there for me when everyone had fallen asleep.
I wouldn't know i would have cheered up so much after talking to someone.
THANKS, KUKU!

jonathan: Aiyo, once a bitch, always a bitch. So, shutup!
Maytaurus: Boots can buy, badge cannot buy.
JACELYN ♥: Helloshelloshelloshellos:D
Kuku:D: Must thank me!

2008-12-04T20:08:00.004+08:00

NOTE: THAT IS NOT MY HAND!

Went to Bukit Timah today.
LOL.
Was sort of fun lah.
We are suppose to go to pool, but in the end, everybody was like don't want.
So we played computer games instead.
Didi helped me with BUBP.
Earned a lot of dens and leveled up to 17(:
But i'm still a clubber, though.
Going to quit -TWINS- and change my name to -xBODOH.
Sounds stupid?
NO!
It is damn, fucking nice:D
Going join new FAM, too.
Jacelyn is going to create it, of course.

Haiyoh.
Lost my Total Defence badge(Bronze).
I'm really, really, really, really sad okay?):
I'll pon CCA bah..
Don't want to go back without a basic badge until i get my Total Defence silver.
Go there for?
Xia suay niah.
Everybody got the badge lo.
Except the stupid me.
Haish.
That was my first badge and it's freaking meaningful to me okay?
Just feel like crying now.
All i have is my Lance Corporal rank and a Road Safety badge.
I really hate the stupid me.
How can i lose such an important thing?!
No use asking this kinda things.
I'll just pray it will be found.

Sadded.
Stupid jermaine, stupid jermaine, stupid jermaine, stupid jermaine, stupid jermaine!
Muddled head.
Useless bum.
I hate myself.
I suck D:
Don't you think so?

It's been so long, what you expect?
If i don't want to regret doing something again.
I hope my decision was right.
_______________________________

Give me a break okay?
I think i'll just bloody-hell suffocate here.
I hate it.
My mood is already in it's worst, and you two come here pour cold water on me.
Maybe you don't mean it, but i'm super pissed off, okay?
Can you just give me a space to breathe?
Be considerate, alright?
I don't want to spend my whole life thinking about these crap.
I find it very irritating lah hor.
It's like.. super cheebye?
Please think of my feelings can?
Chose the right time.

jonathan lao dididididi: You shutup lah. You also beat me when falling in lo-.- super lame bitch:x
MINRU: Oh..
Faye: LOL. I've dyed, but have not removed the extensions.
QIANYI: Bangala woman-.-
dotsboiboi: Spamed back.

2008-12-02T10:18:00.002+08:00

Cheebye backstabber and saboeur.
Ta ma de you got nothing better to do is it?
You tio people daiji first thing you know is to zao.
Hum ji gao.
Go home gam your own lan okay?
People had warned me about you, but i don't believe.
But look at the mess i've gotten myself in!
We shouldn't even ask you to be part of the thing.
You her dog is it?
She ask you go lick her cheebye you lick uh?
You our friend or her friend?
You want go with her then stop looking us up can or not?
I regretted knowing you lah hor.
You want go help her, then help her all you like.
I'm not your friend anymore.

From today onwards, i'll pretend i had never know you before.

Yesterday evening escort Qianyi the Bangala woman and Ziyuan the stupid kuku home.
Then they escorted me home.
Okay, it's very funny lah.
Kuku keep saying Qianyi look like Bangala woman.
LOL.
Then we were like laughing when walking lah.
HAHA.
My Didi miss his gay partner a lot):
Awwww, sad.
But Ziyuan is my kuku.
Too bad!

Apologised to my mother unwillingly.
Did it because of the money.
If one 'sorry' can bring back all the pocket money, why not do it?
LOL.

Going to dye my hair lerh(:
Thanks, Qianyi and her mother.
LOL.
Most probably it's gonna be red.
They say brown is for noobs.
(oops!)
No lah, i think that brown is very common.
I'm not saying red is not, but it is LESS common.
No offence, though:x

jonathan: Saw it-.- Fuck.
Maytaurus: -.-
Faye: Haha, yeah.
dotsboiboi: Okay, i'll try:D
QIANYI: Shutup, bangala woman ><"

2008-12-01T12:06:00.002+08:00

Hahas.
Sian.
Audition patching siah.
First of December..
Time to plan for new year resolution.

___________________________________
New Year Resolution 2009

Pon less lessons.

Quit s__________.

Hand in more homework.

Save more money.

Be more mature.

Buy a new piggy bank.

Get a Corporal rank.
____________________________________

Ohmygod!
Ziyuan now at my house.
Then he and my didi keep playing GAYSZXCCSZD.
Cheebye.
Damn fucking noisy.
They trying to pull each other's pants down.
What the fuck?
VERY NOISY LAH.
My didi damn guailan can or not?
That little boy don't know his limits

Qian, quick come my house save me lah.
I need help!
HELP!

2008-11-30T13:39:00.002+08:00

Haiyoh.
I've really been sleeping like a dead pig.
Slept at 9.30 yesterday and woke up at 9.15am today.
Think i'm still exhausted by the day camp bah:x
I know, i've got lousy stamina.
But not my bloody fault okay?

Si kuku.
Got back his phone so freaking fast.
Now he down there haolian lo.
He posted on his blog something about me!
STUPID KUKU.
Feel like slapping him upside side down lah hor.

Sorry Lahling for not going the movie.
Next time, okay?(:

K♥I敏: okay lah. Not really lah..
JACELYN ♥: Sure, i'll see you soon:D
Maytaurus: -.-
QIANYI: No, i rock more.
fangying: Hahas. Thanks(:

2008-11-29T10:41:00.005+08:00

Wow!
Had a lot of fun yesterday(:
Went for a hike in the morning at Mount Faber.
Front part is okay, but when we were walking back, i suddenly felt very worn out.
*yawns*
LOLS.
Finally reached school and went out to lunch with some squadmates:D
Don't know what got into Laodi because he ate 2 bowls of banmian.
Haiyoh.
At least i still can understand for Edwin lah.
Hahas.
Then the rice uncle sibei sacarstic siah:x

Went back to school and practiced for the interal parade.
Then, of course, we had our internal parade.
My Lance Corporal!<3
It may be only one strip(wtf!), but it takes a lot of hardwork to get the strip lah.
Some people don't even know how to appreciate it.
Because they are jealous of me:D
Like my stupid father.
Say only one strip.
Walau cheebye lah.
I put in so much hardwork then he say until like.
Sibei angry with him lo.

After the internal parade, we practiced for the campfire performance.
Hahas.
Had to do something stupid.
Well, almost everybody did something stupid that night.
Who cares?
It's just for a night.

A lot of seniors turned up last night.
I sure had a lot of fun.
Thanks, Laodi, for accompanying me to the water cooler when i don't dare to go there alone.
Hahas.
It is very scary can or not?
Somemore it's late at night.
Gosh!
It's really dark in there lah.
BBQed and burnt my hand instead.
After that, i don't dare to even touch the stupid pit anymore.
And we had a really hard time getting the first started as there is not enugh charcoal.
I must really thank the Sec2s.
They gave us food while we are trying to start the fire(:

After that, went home with a emoty stomach.

Today woke up with my aches and cramps.
Haiyoh.

Fuck my parents lah hor.
Everytime say what 'Say again i confiscate your broadband uh!'
Eh cheebye!
Do you even know there is such thing called LAN?
Don't know?
Too bad then, you are soooooooo outdated.
Confiscate all you want lah.
Can't you think of something more creative?
I just came back from day camp, now you all down there kpkb.
If i knew that, i wouldn't come back lah.
I should have stayed at my friend's house overnight.
Having you all as my parents is so freaking disgracful man.
Puah cheebye.
You all really suck.
Think what, you my parents very duah huh?
Then go gamlan lah hor.
I've nothing much to say liao, since you think confiscating broadband is a cool thing to do.
Sua lerh.
Just my luck.

I don't know what i'm suppose to do.
Whatever i do is everytime wrong in people's eyes.
What am i suppose to do?
I hate my life; i hate my world.

Kuku:D: LOLS. You go check my codes lah:x
QIANYI: Wow? What? LOLS?
ANGELA :D: Of course i remember(: You are linked!
K♥I敏: Hahas. Me too..):

2008-11-27T14:00:00.002+08:00

*yawns*
i feel that i'm a dead pig nowadays.
Woke up 12 plus.
Actually was woken up by Jerel Koh at 11+.
Haiyoh.
Tml got Annual Campfire and Bbq worh!
Hahs.
I'm quite looking forword to tml because of the internal muster parade(:
I want my rank leh.

dotsboiboi: alo alo alo alo:D
Kuku:D: Balls your head!
QIANYI: Hellos:D
WenLing: Hahs! Anw, just take my advice lah hor(:
JIAMIN: Linked you up already, babe:D

2008-11-26T11:11:00.002+08:00

Haiyoh.
Thank you kuku:D
Now my computer doesn't lag like it used to anymore(:
And my desktop is neater liaoszxccds.
XD

Today super sian.
My brother go take out the broadband.
My mother go confiscate it for some stupid reason lah.
So i don't think i'll be here to post often.
):
Some more Audition maintanence.
Waste of my time leh.
Suay suay.

Nothing really happen lah.
Okay, what you expect?
Now is only morning leh, hello?
LOLS.

2008-11-25T20:54:00.004+08:00

Today wasn't an enjoyable day at all.
Went to ICA, Singapore General Hospital and Bugis with parents.
WITH PARENTS.
Can things get any more boring then that?
SIGHS.
Chatted with Kuku(:
But still, i hate today.
Don't know who.
Don't talk about it liao lah.

Jacelyn, i maybe cannot make it tml.
Because of some family problems lah hor.
Sorry leh.
If i can, i'll try.

I hate this kinda flirter man.
You forge your mother's name to do all these lame things.
Luckily Kuku was clever enough to see through your fucking plan.
You made her cry, and yet you down there hong with another girl.
Wa, you think my friend is your toy siboh?
Go home suck cock lah.
Nahbei cheebye.
Go die lah hor.
When she onlined just for a little while, you offline.
Then from that day onwards, you had never online again.
What's the meaning of this?
Some more you go hong other girls, thinking that she wouldn't know.
But have you ever think about her feelings?
Have you ever behaved like a man and done the right thing?
Humji kiaa.
You can say cheat others but you can't cheat yourself.
You are just like a despo kia wanting girls to fall for you lah.
You may be okay looking, but you just like to hong around.
I won't just let my friends fall for you derh, relax.
This incident may have been from long ago, but you will still know what i'm talking about.
Don't tell me all those stupid things like:'That was really my Mother!'
Eh, tell me, who will let their mother take their phone just like that?
Which mother will take the child's phone and anyhow message people?
Which parent will be that bodoh?
Fuck you.

jonathan: i didn't say i don't trust you right?
Kuku:D & QIANYI: What the hellszxdcczds! ENOUGH! All Kuku's fault:(
JACELYN ♥: o.o I'm not stupid okays? Anw, HAISH. Not my fault also..
pass by: Walau enough of this lah. You tell me your name i give you the answer.

2008-11-24T18:06:00.006+08:00

My life is like so messed up.
Fuckfuckfuckfuckfuck!
I didn't know where my feelings were bringing me to.
It's just my instinct.
Everything just happened too fast.
In my head, revenge is the only word for me.
I had expected this day, expected this moment.
But what i can't expect is my feelings.
What the hell did i wanted?
I knew that if she had lied to me, i would be fucking angry.
But i just didn't want to know the truth.
I just didn't want to accept the truth, i admit.

My life is oh-so-upsidedown.
All i know is even we had maintain our relationship, our feelings won't be as much as we had last time.
All i know is i didn't want to know the truth.
All i know is that i hate my freaking life.
I didn't expect everything to happen, that's it.

Today went to the movie's with my Didi and Kuku mainly to calm myself down(:
My Didi and Kuku damn fucking gay lahszxccszd.
-.-
Hahs.
Very sian.
Then i was like freaking extra.
Watch 'Madgascar 2'.
Kuku was harrassed by some 'Ang Mohs'.
LOLS.
Because the 'Ang Moh' see Kuku bueh song, then keep on kicking him.
After that we went to 'Comics Collection' for window shopping.
Then we went to Library to walk around.
It's quite nice lah, the new renovation.
When time is almost up, we went to buy popcorn, nachos and drinks.

Okay lah, the movie is qite funny and all that stuff lah.
I like it when the old woman beat the lion's backside.
CUTE LEH!:D

After the movie, a lot of popcorns stuck on my leg.
Had to go to the toliet to clean myself before walking.
LOLS.
Because i accidentally poured the popcorn on my seat, that's why.

Went to 'Comics Collection' again.
Hahas.
I wanted to admire the PSP, though i can't have it.
Then Ziyuan damn good lah.
Bought me a solar power thingy(:
We actually wanted to go other places to loiter, but no other places liao.
So, Kuku went my house.
Hahas.
He and my bro..
I don't want to talk about it already.
GAYSXZCCDSXZ!
Now they taking the shades and my camera acting cute.
-.-
They actually played Audition first, but suddenly they become very gay.
OH MY GODSXXZCDDSSZS.

Thanks Kuku, for acompanying throgh the day:D

I'll never trust anyone on Earth again.

Eh fucker.
We also boh ask you go see the tags right?
You bueh song just fuck off lah hor.
We also not talking about you, you so ximtie for what?
Do you know you sound so freaking stupid?
No right?
Of course.
You this kinda xialan kia go home suck cock lah hor?
Don't know whose the humji gao here lah.
Think it's YOU who will run away upon seeing me lah.
Oops sorry!
You won't even dare to come out lah hor?
You will run to home shouting for your mother uh!

I thought she very good one?
I thought you zaogor her?
Huh?
Of course i got people zaogor lah.
Wa limbei, wa limbu and wa sisters lah.
You tell me what the hell you still bueh song with?
Want find place settle?
Sure!
Come find me lah.
Boh ji don't say these kinda things lah hor.
Later your Mama whack your backside i laugh like siao eh!
Actually, you bueh song with me can come one to one settle derh.
Of course, judging that you don't even have the guts, you see me will jitao run derh.
And yah, she act cute huantio me leh.
It's already pretty obvious.
It's either you have no brains or no eyes(:
Yah, if i step, then you what?
People's gao.
People also don't dare say back anything, you shut your fat ass mouth lah.
Chap so much for what fuck?
YOU are the one who boh daiji chuaa daiji hor.
This thing doesn't involve you so i advice you to don't chap so much lah hor?
Later get into deep shit liao go home call for Mother.
Lmao!
Cheebye kia.
Eh, if you don't dare just say lah.
Ask people tag with their own name what about you?
Zzzzxcdzcs.
I also not your gao.
I don't like tagging with my own name leh, what's your bloody problem?
Your mother never teach you manners uh, gao.
Lick my cheebye lah hor.
Don't know anything just stand aside and don't chap so much.
Little girl don't know anything go there only know how to kaobei.
What else?
Gamlan.
I'm telling you you are so childish.
Instead of telling us off, you must as well tell her how not to che daiji?
We see her bueh song your daiji siboh?
Bueh song don't see lah.
No one is begging you to see lah hor.
Haiyoh, your mother ask you go home drink milk liao lah.
Better go home worh, later Mummy whack your butty how?
HAHAS!
And it's my post leh.
I have the rights to write everything i want here.
Yah, you know how say huantio.
Then huantio me lah.
Go lie at the Geylang road lah.
See whether boys will even want you or not.
I'm not the one who want to che daiji.
All i know is you'd better stop poking your nose into other people's business lah hor.
That's what i want to warn you.

2008-11-24T10:30:00.003+08:00

Hellos:D
Recently i'm not very keen about posting.
Actually, things had happened very fast recently, and all i was thinking was REVENGE.
Now, when i'm thinking back, i feel i'm so childish and immature.
Kuku said i've changed.
He said i've become more mature in some of my thinking, but become even more childish in some of them.
God, i really didn't know what i'm doing.
Now, i've got myself in deep shit.
I shouldn't have did that revenge thingy.
I've regretted a bit, sure, A BIT.
But i just can't let the bitch off!
It's not entirely my fault!
I've told Kuku that if the girl stop messaging me when i'm cooling down, maybe things would be different today.
Maybe.. I don't know..
People say i can be really bitchy, but i beg the differ.
If the another party didn't provoke me, i wouldn't have done these things.
It's not just the person who is feeling the pain, mind you.
It was my intention to make her hurt lyk ^&*$$@@(.
I did almost everything to make her regret.
But in the end what did i get?

Now i know some things can't be controlled.
Now i know i can't control everything as and when i wanted.
I've been so bitchy.
I know.
But since i've come this far, i doubt i'll let go of my plan.
It's flawless, i tell you.
Some of you don't even know what i'm talking about, so if you want, stop reading this post.
Those who know what i'm talking about, tell me whether should i give up or not.
Whether should i continue to let her suffer hell or what.

Call me bitch and i'll show you one.

Thanks girlfriends and Ziyuan, for being there when i need you all the most(:
Especially Jacelyn:D
I love you all lah♥
But there are somethings i need to decide on what to do without seeking for your advices.
Don't worry.
Since this is my choice, i won't regret it derh.

K♥IMIN: Thanks:D
izyan: Commented back your blog(:
JACELYN ♥: You didn't delete all, my dear(:
;'MINRU: Relinked:D
Faye: Hms, it's up to you derh. Make sure you don't regret your choice, that's all i have to say(: